perfect standstill

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

happy birthday Tan Ying Xi (DOM)

hahaha
and ure plain ridiculous i swear
sorry i'm still at it ah

but seriously
i guess birthdays are overrated once u hit past 16 17-ish
i mean there's pretty much nothin to look forward to anymore.
for majority people nowadays,
its just another night of partying wit U in the limelight

and like alotta other people,
they just tend to get that repulsive feelin when it nears
its like u anticipated the arrival of something too much,
like u had ur expectations for that day so friggin high,
u just cant afford for it to screw
and to avoid disappointment,
u sneak away from it

so to camouflage that anxiety
u doll it up wit nonchalance
and say things like, ' its just another day la'
i'm sure many do
(not just referrin to birthdays pls)
well i mean i do at least
and not that i think its anythin bad mind you

talk bout being honest and bare
how bare and naked can we expect from people la pls
i mean ok eg, guys may be pervs(not all, i know)
and enjoy sneakin glances at overly-exposed women
but that doesnt mean they think its alright for woman to go around undressed
an amount of like covered-up is necessary la
the right dosage of course

i know there're many out there now who stamps
'i think the world is so pretentious, its wrong and i cant stand it'
across their forehead
but oh well

wah.
ive no clue why i'm rambling on and on bout this outta the blue man
maybe seein all the politics at work triggered my train of thoughts
thats what i call pretentious man
how hypocritical people can get for their own benefits in monetary terms
you never know who's sincere who's not
and the one u call friend may very well be the who gave u that push towards the edge
its way more real than the 'i do this cuz i wanna be cool' pretence

oh my, turtle just made me instant noodles
well, if things can get better
then i hope its soon
i dont want my hopes to be dashed all over again

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

switchfoot - let that be enough

oh and i'm damn amazed by what u observed
i think my whole system's givin way man
but this's the first after sucha long time i finally found myself so into something
like i really wanna get it done properly
i mean ive been screwin up for so long,
i think its time i set at least some stuffs right
ive roles to play and corrections to make
though i'm sure there's still a big part of me u still think is very wrong
haha oh well
at least thats one step taken forward i see for myself?

xoxo
5:38 PM