Tuesday, May 31, 2005

talked alot bout life wit danielle.
realised alot.
remembered alot of stuffs i forgot,
which i sldnt.

i hate being in this situation.
when i'm overwhelmed with wad i think
which often lands me in states of denial
den slowly the fog clears up again.
but i wanna learn,
so i guess i cant complain.
somehow scratch and burn
is still better than the nonsense my head churns.

my head is not workin right to think though
haha..

all i wanna do is get it off my chest
cuz its too much for my head to nest

thats all. =/

ciao bellas.

xoxo
4:23 PM

Monday, May 30, 2005

i dunno wads going on in my life right now
things're coming and going so quickly
jus like u, and the other u.
though u dunno i'm referring to u. haha
confusing? perfect. =)

i'm so sick of everything sometimes
sigh.. cant it leave me alone for awhile?

been running in my mind the entire day
haha. i'm really surprised.
den again, wads the use?
when i'm so scared and i know
this whole thing will be but a big mistake to u.

and i hope u will leave soon.
i guess ure right sometimes.
bout the things i do.
oh well. =/

i'm nothin but a big joke.
but wait, that cannot be.
when mere smiling is already exhausting?

rah.. my entry is depressing.
and its ya, basically rubbish.
whatever.
i sld go start dreamin now.
maybe i'll feel better.

cuppycake.
dammnn cute laa.
be my cuppycake, anyone?
hahaha

xoxo
5:11 PM

Sunday, May 29, 2005

today's one of the most boring day ever, ever
there really are soo many movies that i wanna catch
but i really dunno who will man
linda caught em already
eileen's side refuses to watch wit me
ta's always sayin she dun wanna spend money
the rest has stupid sch
and ive been buggin saph too much
haha. i'm feelin sorry. WOOPS

DANIELLE! where are u? rah..

monday and tuesday off.
anyone who's free, take me out pretty please?
haha. i feel pathetic.

sigh..

please dun let it go away.
cus i'm kinda half enjoying it.
it feels so new to me.
haha. its been TWO yrs since i felt it.
hmmmm.. -rubs chin-

xoxo
3:21 PM

Saturday, May 28, 2005

went to sch.
ta stayed last night, that irritant. haha
i kinda miss sch.
ok, more like missin a place where i know i sorta belong? nvm..

they did theyre add drop.
poor saph,once again.
was dragged to kayi's house wit ta and i
i'm so sorry,again. (note that i keep sayin again)
haha
had subway at the airport
i guess MAYB i'm starting to understand why they like it soo damn much. haha

ta is really irritating now. rahh..
whatever.

emancipated? word of the day man. haha
but i likee. =)

xoxo
3:05 PM

Friday, May 27, 2005

caught my bf's type B today, quite funny.
but its the typical korean romantic comedy.
poor saph had to wait for me as usual.
i'm really very sorry man.
i make u wait say all the time? haha

the two interviews today were ok, i guess
the upper club one's damn tough la
doubt i'll get em anyway
yes yes
this's me, always soo positive

bored. off tmr, again.
i complain when i work,
i complain when i rest.
geor, jus wad do u want?

i like talkin to u. -raises brows-

xoxo
3:24 PM

Thursday, May 26, 2005

days are jus filled with work, work and more work.

y'day..
left work early.
had a drink wit ken at father's.
waited dunno for wad. haha..
cabbed back.
slept.

wow. i lead such an interesting life. =/

hopefully the interviews will pull through tmr.
need a job laa.
think i've been really paranoid these days.
sigh..
wads wrong geor.

anyway u really ignored me. haha.
right.
but i jus dunno why?
mayb i'll feel better if u gimme a reason?
i mean dun i deserve it?


And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the tim
eAnd so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new


diee.. i'm in love with this song now.
saph's fault. haha

xoxo
4:07 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

whatever la

fcuk la

it wud be best if i'm not home, really

but where else wud wanna keep me?

the day was supposedly quite a good one. but they jus had to put such an awful ending to it.

was out wit val today. her dad gave us a ride to europa. collected like $15? pathetic. haha.. bused to town. chicken rice, caught 'the jacket' and went to meet my sis. sat around for awhile at cine den off to test the fragrances. haha.. buying my sister the dumb perfume i think. its damnn nice laa. i've decided that i'll only buy females,that matter to me, perfume next time. cuz if i buy, i'll buy some fragrance i like, and only if ure close to me den will i get the chance to like, smell it right? and i want noone besides these ppl to smell like THAT. haha.. ridiculous and nonsensical but ya. haha.. den went to try almost all the shades on the rack. saw taufik at topman wisma. has the build and all but jus not really THAT cute laa.

bumped into winnie and all today. damn funny laa. i miss sec schhh.. hmmm.. oh and amanda's back on monday!! heh.. its been so long. and i jus realised today that wad we were speculating bout last time is true. our intuition's damn accurate laa. heh.. cant wait to meet them all soooon.

for the second time, my sis likes my friend. haha. she likes val. and the other one's j. funny i know.

xoxo
3:20 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

OMG.. i wanna change the dumb pic can? super spas can. rah.. anyway i'm damnn full laa.. hmmm.. didn go for the mahjonging thingy in the end. didn wanna end up cabbing there and back. haha. came home early. cooked. yumm. haha.. sis was damn hungry u see. the day seemed long but its filled with nothing but thinking. thinking of where to look for a job, whether i sld leave work early to meet em, whether i sld eat out or home and tons of other stupid stuffs.

geor.. please remember to dye ur friggin hair later. bah.. tmr's a PH. damn. wun a movie cost like TEN bucks den?! and town'll be all jammed up. turn-off.

anyway.. mayb u really didn go in the end. =/ whatever. or maybe u went later. my sis must be stupid to give it to u laa. and u HAPPILY put all the links there. both u and my sis know nothin bout privacy man seriously.

whatever.

whatever.

whatever.

wad i say or think dusn matter anyway. nv has.

reality bites,
and i bet it hates me
cuz its killing me every night.

off to dye my grassy hair.
ciao..

xoxo
2:23 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

i am damn tired. i remember having alot of things to say but i totally forgot wad they are so there. till i rem den..

worked full today. met linda during brk, and off to chijmes after work. min called. the place was damn crowded laaaa. walked past father's. was too crowded for me to pay attention. but it dusn matter. it sldn anyway. specially when its the weekend nw.

hopefully the mahjonging pulls through tmr night. haha.. my hands're itching damn badly can.
cant believe i'm missin tanning tmr. missed it today already la. rahh. but maybe its a good thing since she might be going, ok more like she WILL be going. haha..

its another day tmr.. cant wait to find a reaal job soon.
ure really surprisingly interesting. diee.. =)

the eighth world wonder, i wun ever understand

xoxo
4:28 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

rah.. this whole blog thingy is driving me nuts. haha.. i really suck at all these. my deaarestt sis, when will u help me?? haha..

its been a long time since i spent a whole day at home. feels quite good i guess. did somethings i havent done for like 7693 yrs? haha. sch's starting soon. it feels really odd not being part of it though. oh well..
talked to linda abit. realised i've been missing out on alotta outings they had the past few weeks. reason? my phone cudn recieve the msgs they sent. i wonder if its jus my phone. she was wondering where i've disappeared to. haha.. havent really had a conversation like that for ages. feels rather good. like i'm s-l-i-g-h-t-l-y more connected to em in a way.

i realised its not jus me who faces probs. everyone else around has theirs to. its jus a choice on how u wanna see it. whether u wanna magnify it or choose to see it on a lighter note. i should just stop wallowing in self-pity. stop wasting my time idling around. yes geor.. please be more determined. haha..

well.. its barely 24hrs seriously. and i'm already handling it so badly. this sld've started 2.5 months ago. i guess it came a lil late? haha.. i dunoo how it'll go or how u'll be neither do i know how long this will last. rah.. whatever. i've worried enough. i've even worried ur share when u wun even care. =/


Yes indeed, I'm alone again.
And here comes emptiness crashing in.
It's either love or hate, I can't find in between,
'cause I've been with witches and I've been with a queen.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.

Wish there was something now I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
But I'd rather walk alone than chase you around.
I'd rather fall myself than let you drag me on down.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.

And now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now, it's just another lonely day.

Yesterday seems like a life ago,
'cause the one I love today, I hardly know,
You I held so close in my heart,
Oh dear, Grow further from me with every fallen tear.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.

xoxo
3:39 PM