Thursday, June 30, 2005

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel
with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that
I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you


james blunt - you're beautiful


i want donuts i want donuts i want donuts
i want DONUTS LAAA
eileen kang, i'm still waitin for it AH.

all the sushi came out at work
-pweh-
rubbed shit into my mood


u said it'd go quick
but it sure look like it wun be soon
damn
sorry man
like seriously =/


foo fighters
new favourite
their album, i wanna buy

insomniac?!
tsk tsk

xoxo
3:11 PM

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


i think its quite damn true eh.
heh.. cuz it makes me sound so good
=))
oh maybe EXCEPT the flirt and attractive part.
damn nonsense.
ATTRACTIVE?! like please?!

ahh whatever.

geor is excruciatingly emo now
so unless u think ure smile-inducing enough for her,
steer clear and shut up
cus she dusn feel like talkin now?



Feeling the moment the slip away
Losing direction you're losing faith
You're wishing for someone
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun
How do you feel when rain drops
come pouring down again
How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you

Turning to face what you've become
Bury the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun
How do you feel when rain drops
come pouring down again
How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you
All the things you do

Don't ever feel that you're alone
I'll never let you down
I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart
Don't let it go
Carry the motion
Carry the motion back to me

Am I just like you

How do you feel when there's no sun
How do you feel when rain drops
come pouring down again
How do you feel when there's no one

Am I just like you?

feeder - feelin a moment

am i?
sigh
i'm emo and i really dunno wad to do?!

xoxo
3:27 PM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

went out wit spider WOMAN today
haha..
-psst, psst, psst-
that stupid shoe shop wasn open
and spiderwoman's sick
haha..
who's gonna save the world den?!

nonsense
damn i still cant talk to u
as in library of things to say like so limited
but its soon that the awkward phase will pass
it better or else i'll be like so stupid la

and yes, i stillllll feel like singing
please go wit me someone please
i'll stuff ur ears for u?
i jus got my voice back u see
so can terrorise, again
hahahaha

i'm happy the way i am now
i'm busy makin myself happy
at least for a fact i'm not affected anymore
and when i saw the pics,
i dunno why but feel sorry for u instead
not like things are any better for me but at least i know i'm happy. =))



I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming

and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly waiting...
For you to want me,
for you to need me,
for you to notice me

dashboard conffessionals - for you to notice

i'd rather u save me than the world
i know i'm dreamin and selfish
rahh.
haha.

i'm tired

xoxo
12:19 PM

Monday, June 27, 2005

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me
but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and
I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you, You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you, And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me

aqualung - strange and beautiful


the whole i'll be there for u song is stuck
rahh..
i'm omfing tired.
sigh.
i think i'm mad.
haha.

and yes xiang, i wun anymore
feel wierd i mean.
and wad presents?
-feigns ingorance-
i dun intend to get em.
heh..

i hope you'll get well soon.

ok this's friggin obvious already.
no side effects please.
sigh..

xoxo
5:26 PM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

g.e.o.r at ITS true-est, yet again
haha

i drank all that i made today
3 dry martinis
2 sangrias
1 snowball

heh

light light only


ohhhh! haha
i man man xiang dao wad kinda barbie i want already


1. barbie must be comfortable in fronta me

2. barbie sld see my flaws, like all of it

3. barbie wun be too proud to tell me she needs me

4. barbie that has a mind of her own

5. a certain level of dressing laa

6. lame like me please

7. hopefully likes to eat like mee, hehh

8. not too gu-niang can

actually all dun have also can, as long as we feel at ease together

i like to plan outtings la but not this kinda thing
the ONLY thing's thats MOST imp..

i like it all natural
the way she act and speak =)
no keh-kehs please


hahaha.. so random right
hehh..
it jus came to me wad

wad else can i do if i dun wanna be jus friends?
nothing?

sigh..

xoxo
4:31 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do I'll be there for you


soo nice
caught alot like love today
i guess all of us jus expected too much outta this show
thats why it jus dusn look THAT fab
ok i'm rather mad now
so wad i say cant really count
hahaha

mattel, i hope there'll be a day when u'll produce
barkens and kenbies
but i know that day will nv come
like some days i know that nv will either
sighh

i'm achin on my LEFT shoulder ONLY
madness
nonsense
its damn bad laa



You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to possibly..

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was more than that
About me and you

butch walker - mixtape

oh wun u be my barbie please?

i jus wish though
but it seems my wishes never do come true
bummer
and so u jus drive away from my car crash of a heart

geor, stop ur crazy shit and go to sleep!

xoxo
7:06 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

initial D was good
i'm gonna watch it a second time
like seriously
ive not had my fill on all the racing scenes
specially all that drifting

hehh..

xoxo
2:14 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

ok i'm currently breathin through my mouth
cuz my nose is blockedd
haha.. gross!

i reckon work this week will be the most
interesting one.
since ive soo many extra company
but this will only make work as of next week
more unbearable than usual
damn.. i'm so hard to please

and yes.. i think i can finally say byebye to it
hmmmm..

i wanna get well fasterly
but howww?!
i tried the ice lolly method for the throat
and see! i said its nonsense
saph u bluff me laaa

and the panadol method
see! nonsense again
and its px's turn to bluff me
hahaha


i dun want next month to come
dun wanna feel like i'm forced to grow up
not yet, not now

xoxo
4:20 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

burning

38.8
the sister's highest was 39
everyone's sick

my brain's fried

and i still cant sleep
after all the stupid pills
theyre supp to make me drowsy arent they?
rahh


someone make me dinner?
its tirin fixing meals, for noone
worse when it sucks


bahh
madness

xoxo
12:57 PM

Monday, June 20, 2005

had a nice heart to heart talk wit the sister
all the way till 4plus in the morn?
well, i hope she was being perfectly honest
(which i really doubt)
haha..


its really odd havin her come work today
come to think of it,
though we've had sucha tangled past
we've nv ever been close in any form
besides over the phone
we've barely gone out as a pair only
to be exact, never
and to think today was the first
wad a joke

though i doubt i can ever see her
as a normal friend
not that it means anythin more but ya
and she got me hooked on stupid LEGO!!
haha..

i want the ferrari can
and the huge ass crane
but they all cost $$
which is something i really lack now
bummer


and as usual, u jus cut off like that
oh well

geor is nothing but a bitter biatch
when i say BITTER, i mean it
and an angsty kid too
double personality?
haha..

xoxo
2:32 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

i told u i know things will change
the way u think
the way u see things

i actually typed a chunk
i repeat, a whole CHUNK today
but everythin was gone
due to some stupid reason
pissing mad and lazy, as usual


Say when you're alone
It's better 'cause nobody knows you
When no one's your friend
It's better 'cause nobody leaves you
So you turned your back

On a world that you could never have
'Cause your heart's been cracked
And everyone else's is goin' mad

But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you

Now all of these people
Come up from deep holes
Pullin' you down
And it's just no use
When all the abuse follows you down
By the morning you've gone
Leavin' me here all alone
Sayin' it's no mystery
I know that nobody here needs me

And I know you believe
that you and me don't belong here
And the worst we could do
Is keep trying to pretend we care

the wallflowers - i wish i felt nothing


i dun have much to talk bout
as in i lack words and events to say
wads going on in my life
everytime i come and sit in front of
this screen, i realise how empty and boring
my life actually is,
as much as i'm tryin to conceal it

it dusn work that way
more like it sldnt
the way i'm tryin so hard
only to see things backfire
using words that dun belong to me
seems easier such as songs/music, whatever?

i jus feel its so much easier to express myself
like after such a long day in my monotonous life,
i can find things that i relate to and
describe and express myself without havin to
wreck my brains to look for words that
arent even half as apt as the song can do

i can yack all the rubbish in fronta friends
but there're jus a thousand other situations
where words jus evaporate
the moment my lips part
believe it or not, i can barely say like
the stupid three words,
i miss u and all that bull to whoever it may be

nv verbally at least
i dunno
theyre always like clinging onto my throat
refusing to budge

haiya

i'm only good at blabbering
like the way i am now
and i feel stupid for wad ive typed
but i'm jus too lazy to remove it
sloth is my middlename
and i'm sick of not being able to make sense
period.

xoxo
5:03 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

you run, so hard, so fast
with your back to where i'm standing
there's no turning back,
and still, off you go
to be the only cake on the table

but how wud u feel,
if u realise ure jus a cake gone stale?

hmm..


I don't mean to sound so vengeful
or to hit you when you're down
but you took my house of dreams
and burnt it to the ground
and now you say you're really sorry
well that's really nice to hear
but where were you
when everything we had
got up and disappeared

is it all that great without me
I really want to know
was it easy to forget me
cause your eyes are saying no
did you find a broken rainbow
with an empty pot of gold
well if it's all that great without me
then I'm glad you let me go

evan and jaron -
is it all that great without me


i've had decisions i'll look back now
feelin sorry and all that jazz
and those i wonder why i even made
i'll just wonder
but i guess there's just none which i'd go,
'damn, i really regret this la.'

none at the moment,
none, hopefully, in future

this is nonsense entry.

xoxo
5:32 PM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

finally saw livia after 98545753 yrs
but it seemed a lil odd
rushed down last min
hmm..

it was rainin mad dogs today
fallin off my bed was the last thing i wanted to do
rah.. and first thing that i could think of was...

1. steamin tiong bahru chweeh kwueh and
2. freezing iced milo

heh.. sucha glutton -winks-


Chase me through the dark
Ready on your mark
First to reach the stars
Wins a broken heart
One that broke apart
Shattered from the start


foo fighters - over and out

bored!
and hungry. heh..

xoxo
3:19 PM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

this has gotta be one of the sexiest song ive ever heard.

mondo bongo - Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros

oooooohh..
omf-ing nicee. i likee.
and maybe the fact thats its from mr. mrs smith makes it even more irresistable. sorry. this is wad u get from geor after watchin a movie twice. -grins-


ice lollies + the stupid weather = happy geor
i only appreciate simple equations.
math has nv been my forte and,
i'm a simple person
haha..


Latino caribo, mondo bongo
The flower looks good in your hair
Latino caribo, mondo bongo
Nobody said it was fair
Latino caribo, mondo bongo
The flower looks good in your hair
Latino caribo, mondo bongo
Nobody said it was fair

=))

xoxo
2:26 PM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

i feel utterly stupid
like seriously
get a grip geor
its been more than 3 months
thats long enough
rah....

saph came for work today
wasn really busy so was ok i guess
hope it wasn too bad for her
haha..
my aunt was jus out to embarrass me for god-knows wad reason la. dammit.

mr. mrs smith for the SECOND time,
good gracious. haha..
oh and work tmr, as usual.

such is my life, its non-existent.


u come through my gates more often than not
pullin me down without noticing it at all
i guess its time these gates are locked
before everythin inside starts to crumble and fall,
so please get this cue, its obvious like anything

xoxo
3:58 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

no more waiting for the end
of everyday that i'll spend
wishing that i only had a choice
no more pushing you away
cause i'll be busy watching things go my way
no looking back on this anymore
because what i'm looking for are the answers
to why these questions never go away


tanned y'day, again.
i'm gonna get skin cancer soon
-slaps mouth-
oops! heh..

and yes RANIAH SAYANG,
ure the best and i lovee u.
hahaha.. happy?? =))

-psst- i was forced to say that.
as u can tell. heh.. j/k

there's so much to say
yet so little words to describe
compassion's in my nature
but for now i jus wanna run and hide

xoxo
4:07 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Maybe it's just me, but you seem finally happy
I don't think I've seen your face just glow
Like a neon sign and maybe
we should be alone for ever after,
Cause even thought the nights are long
At least I'll make it another day

Cause I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile
And maybe things got weird
after all that went down
Things were oh so clear,
That I could never get the right
So tell me what your plans are
And tell me what you're doing
The only thing I'll hold against me
is a picture of you tonight

Cause I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile
And I can't wait to see you rise
And I can't wait for you to shine
But I can wait for you if all you need is...

Time for you to think things over
Time to talk the drama down
It's not a contest of who'll try harder
Or who'll cross the finish line

And I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile
And I can't wait to see you rise
And I can't wait for you to shine
But I can wait for you if all you need is time



wad makes u think u really know,
what and whom isit i really want?
when u were the one,
who drove my ass right to the ground.

i dun think i need to know
how well ure doing, how happy u are
and specially not how much u not need me anymore.
u can keep those on ur side of the world,
while i roam quietly on mine.
cuz u still strike at where it hurts best
when i haven even had enough time to rest

thats not right,
it never was.
though as quoted from the show,
'i felt like christmas morning when i saw u'
well not when i saw u but u get the flow.
was it jus a christmas gone wrong?


so please spare a thought for me and all the agonising details. i dun need to live wit em.

xoxo
3:51 PM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

pain in the ass
rahh..

on a lighter note..
wild wild wet y'day was pretty fun.
felt like a ten yr-old cannn.
we were like constantly attacked by..
two 6-ish 7 yr old boys??
hahahaha..
funny laa. oh! and i slipped and fell.
oops! haha. embarrassin.
landed on flat on my ass/back/HEAD!!
imagine an 18 yr old slippin at the kids section?! tsk tsk.. ;p

didn go for dinner wit the class in the end
cudn make it in time dammit
oh well.. another time hopefully

work work work!


i ate my soul and it made me fat
and i starve myself from everything
else that makes me full

xoxo
2:26 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

man i'm smoked.
haha. i smell like a walkin sausage,
a burnt one.
linda's niece's birthday?
haha. she's ONE! and she's really cute.
but i had to keep a distance..
cuz she was constantly crying? haha

wild wild wet.
heard em said its pretty boring.
damn but i still wanna go.
linda, pls no last min change of plans tmr.
haha. dinner wit the class B '01/02,
i think. eat again?!
dieee. haha

OMF.
i jus fed a dozen mosquitos i bet.
-ROARRS-
please dun rain tmr. haha


ok. this's a redundant entry
with nothin but my day's events
which NOONE needs to read or know
and now i'm startin to choke out nonsense.

georr. i think the bbqing smoked too much of ur brain cells. u need to rest and bathe.

heh. i've yet to.
and yes, i admit i'm dirty and sluggish.
-grins-

adios!

song stuck in my head.

Butch Walker-Maybe Its Just Me =))

xoxo
3:22 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

stigmatized.

xoxo
2:55 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

i declare tonight 'the night of thoughts'
haha.. and yes saph,
i think u made quite a bit of sense.

friends friends friends

come to think of it,
its pretty sad even if uve like the other one?
but no real like friends around
well at least that was wad happened to me
when my world was built around nth but YOU
i thought that was enough, thought
but it was jus way unhealthy

life the way it is now actually isn any bad
in fact, way better?
i dun wanna put myself in that kinda situation,
not anymore
its too vulnerable
and its like missing out on a whole part of life too

ive been hiding in a corner of the globe wit u,
when i can at least travel half of it alone?
ok not alone, wit everyone else around me.

guys i dunno if u'll ever chance upon this,
but if u do, thanks.
ive had my fair share of a rough time
and now i'm finally like, woo hoo!
haha. and its all thanks to u guys.
u all know who u are la so that can spare me the agony of giving u credits one by one.

heh.. oops! =)


nights world.

xoxo
5:23 PM

OMG!

uneven tann, across my NECK?!
sldnt have read the bloody papers while tanning man.


rahhh.
diee la.
#&!!?*#^%$^?!


stop stressin me will u?
cant i even decide on my own?
stop pushin,
cuz u aint gonna be gettin
not close, not any
fcuk it

xoxo
7:27 AM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

ive had enough,
of wad u give to noone but me.
take it all back cuz
ive had enough


so in the end no zoo tmr
gwyn's sick
conclusion, tannin wit serene. haha
please sun,
jus hate me and burn me tmr.
oops!
ok i take that back. haha


i want alott of stuffs
1. ck and vans slippers
2. x-large caps
3. volcom berms, pants
4. puma bag?
5. wallet
6. a dozen tops
7. nike, puma, adidas and converse shoes
8. my hair to grow?
9.my AQUALUNG pleaseee

can jus anyone buy no. 9 and lend me?
i promise to love u for the rest of my life.
hahaha



i could say words no one would breathe
with my heart right on my sleeve
all was clear,
there was she.
but den again
here alone is me.

hmmmm..

xoxo
2:22 PM

Friday, June 03, 2005

take me away from this monstrosity
and let the night reign all over me
cuz my futile thinkin isn solvin anythin

come define me

xoxo
2:23 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

ok my head's burnt
including my brain

fever and work. hmm..
dusn really sound that good together.
-shruggs-

should i rest?
haha..

xoxo
2:31 PM

i'm down wit split-personality
will someone pleasee save me?



pretences, defences
theyre crumbling down
excuse me excuses,
who's with me now?

xoxo
1:09 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

emo-fied seriously.

storm - lifehouse


How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right



right?
righttt
nothin but a facade
and i'm tired
i've never really liked rollercoasters anw
the ups and downs are perhaps..
too exhausting?

fcuk

xoxo
4:12 PM

had waffles at gelare for dinner?
well, i'm a health freak really.
and i had TWO, not one. -_-
felt like pukin after.
geor ure mad. haha

i was really pissed before that though
but come to think of it,
i think i was too petty?
whatever.
it was on my expense still.

major highlight of the day...
i met AMANDA!
haha. its been one whole year laa
damn i miss those days.

friday friday friday -conts chanting-
gonna be eating day again
fcuk

dammit
its not temporary. =/

xoxo
2:03 PM