Sunday, April 30, 2006

i had this really regular customer leaving last night
miss cynthia we call her
she's the nicest thing around, at least for as long as i worked
apparently she's going home, back to the states, for good
i felt quite damn sad though
i mean we all were, xixi(LOL) and i

then i realised miss j's leaving sometime in aug too-.-
though its rather different but HEY!
ive never had a close friend leave, yet.
yes j, geor sees u as a close friend. hows that.
oh well =/

geor is too emotional for her own good, on all sorta stuff
whoa, just where the heck do all these energy come from man
but i think it makes me more sensitive, not over-sensitive i hope lol
people like me are best not left alone
cuz they need an outlet for all the affections inside
tsktsk. perhaps i sld just shower em on me dog hahaha
ok that sounded kinda depressing. hmmm

i miss people but im lazy to type em all out
guess who? hahahaha
and my sis is blowing bubbles
now the whole house is filled with em hahaha
bubbles oh bubbles
see how they burst at touch and
i cant help but think of all the if only's
woooooo. feel the love yo.
hahahahaha


look at u, fleeing to the otherside
aint no reason to hide
i shock at the way u handle it
cuz girl you can have it so much better
by choosing to look at things from a different light
friends, such a big and pretty word
im satisfied with it, seriously
whats the point in making something as simple so complicated right?
chill with it la
wooohooo


cramps are such bitches
they ought to be shot and thrown into exile
then again, they come back every month-.-
gah, i want speakers!
random at its height once again
heh -pokes whoever



.

xoxo
12:49 PM

Saturday, April 29, 2006

醒来只有我一个人
分不清黄昏或清晨
空气微冷有甚么在流逝 慢慢降温
一颗心往下沉

毕竟只是太短的梦
彼此终于退回陌生
我加上你两个人并不等于我们

你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗 飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗 如果诚实回答
可是爱也不是解答

你知道吗 我心快要溶化
是这样吗 压抑的会爆发
你爱我吗 爱我就懂我吗

告诉我善意的谎话
告诉我善意的谎话
好让我相信我不是太傻

王力宏 - 两个人并不等于我们


its a sad lil song on a quiet friday night
OH. my line is cut!!!
gah. means no outgoing calls nor sms -.-
want my life?!

so there goes my pay for this month
SPLENDID


eradicate the optimism geor
ok, theres not any left actually hahaha
so thats a good thing
www hasnt called me
is that a sign? im sadded. hahaha
oh well.

my throat wouldnt stop being a bitch and im coughing my lungs out so i think i sld just head to bed. or something else.

zzzzzz

xoxo
12:58 AM

Friday, April 28, 2006

facing the music
barely breathing



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xoxo
2:18 AM

somewhat smooth day with lil hiccups here and there
but everythings still fine, i guess
szengee-ed, van-ed, leen-ed and yx-ed
oh badminton-ed and 85-ed too

i think im damn clumsy
and i look really unglam most of the time
hahahahaha. DAMN

im absolutely dry on what to blog about
im just wasting this space
cuz its mineminemineminemine.
HMMMM


suave?
yeah right j, SURE
haha. lovelove still though =)


keep it all to yourself
im keepin it all to me

xoxo
12:23 AM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

though you try your best to stay afloat,
sometimes u just cant help but find all efforts seemingly futile against the world, when youre alone

today was actually good in all
but mother just had to wreck it
she has no idea how big an impact her words have on me
despite the fact that she's just saying em outta pms or whatever
im heartbroken

im at the height of my randomness
and suddenly im having heart spasms
great. all at a time. WHOO!


Back and forth that voice of yours keeps me up at night
Help me search to find the words that eat you up inside
I go side to side like the wildest tides in your hurricane
And I only hide what is on my mind because I can't explain

What if I do love
What if I don't?
I'd have to lose everything just to find you
What if I do love
What if I don't
I'd have to lose everything just to find you

It's my turn this solo burn so throw me in the fire
Trophies earned and lessons learned, my wicked little lies
We can pave new roads with the cold creed stones,
wind them through the pines
Should I stay or should I go alone?
I cannot decide


foo fighters - what if i do


today marks the 64th
i hope itll all stop at the 100th
slightly more than a month left, geor you can do it
i mean, u dont really have a choice do u?
hmmm no, u dont




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xoxo
11:45 PM

today mustve been one the worse day by far
i cant believe the extent it went but yeah
i need to like do something about my luck!
pantang! haha

supression's the new in!
i deserve the best actress award man.
supporting actress though, never the main nor lead
thats for sure.

tell me why ive this uber strong gut feeling that i wouldnt get the job tmr. hmmm. lady luck have just been missing me so much lately, i dont even dare to think about it. its ok geor, if they dont take you, ITS THEIR LOSS. heh.


cuz you gave me the best mixtape i have

xoxo
12:39 AM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

for a moment i thought i was on the fast track to smiles
took me a lil longer than i should to realise its otherwise
better late than never i guess
what doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger

was on the verge of some serious confession
but the idea of lettin my heart get to my head once more,
all the unbearable consequences and
names i'd have to bear killed all that was there
ignorance is bliss i figured
just dont be too surprised if one day you realise,
what hold u actually have of me

we are just similarly different people
similarly different


and in case anyone thinks im talking bout my basic test, its not aye.
i wouldnt make something as small sound so grave
and im way past the test anyway.
i can jolly well just retake it =)

feeling uber guilty now for all the profanities i shot about my mum
was just upset by the mother's comments
she never fails to put me way down
and it hurts most to know those comments were from her
but still, i adore her larr
she's the cutest thing and i love her to bits
i'd do my best to make her proud
seriously, one day, i will
i promise to try and we all know i dont make promises, anyhow

=))

its time for D1 now
off to marina square
hahaha.




heaven should never have felt this cold
blessings never this disguised
but no guise is too hard to be under now
when u find yourself helplessly,
a victim of obsession in an overseen calamity




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xoxo
1:42 PM

my entry just got deleted LIKE THAT. GAH
nvm, i can still vividly remember what i said.
hahahaha

feeling ultimately perkier now though
JOKEBOX WANNA BE HOW SWEET LA
heartsheartshearts

was having an untimely headache
but apparently, its gone. i wonder why. hmmm
yet to study for basic! pls dont fail tmr geor. hahaha

and i was saying i feel very much like garnish lately
like accessory sorta, though i know i make the worst but still
feel uber outta place, in the crowd. dont ask why.
just feel damn extra.
wo bu zhi dao. only van will understand i guess. hmmm.

i was suddenly reminded of the '10 things i hate about you' movie
therefore i listed 10 things down BUT, since the entry's gone,
i shall not list it again. that was a sign man, thank goodness it didnt publish
being too cheesy is bad for health you see. heh.

and this whole entry actually sounded sorta depressing earlier,
but saph made my day!
i can start writing now!

thanksthanksthanks
lovelovelove
heartsheartshearts

u made geor feel the love around yo LOL
and not as transparent as she felt
=))

xie xie ni
arigatou
thank you
gracie
terima kasih
mm goi
gam sia

xoxo
12:43 AM

Monday, April 24, 2006

moods were on some serious turbo swing yesterday
crappyness worked its way from early morning till late at night
i got my one star at least, for kayaking
oh, and a slight tann too. =))

so everyone's starting school
noone will have time for geor!
i guess ive been quite a bugger lately
getting people to meet me, not wanting to stay home
now ive landed myself in a damn fix
guess ive to survive on ken then?(sounds damn wrong i know)
but i dont wanna be so dependent on her either
when her school starts, then ill seriously be in shit aye

tmr's basic and i cant even find my textbook
GREAT! geor is ever as smart. GAH.


they say absence only makes the heart grow fonder
somehow i hope it isnt true, or we'll never get an end to this
though i think neither presence nor absence's gonna make a difference
since its the mind calling the shots,
wrecking and making my days
but ive to say im still enjoying everyday wrecked/made

mood/inspiration-less.
its been this way for many days
i think my brain has died.
gah. ciaociao

xoxo
9:53 AM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

was having a conversation with ken and realised our differences.
like the way we perceive stuffs and how we handle it.

i mean, some people(like yours truly), would go on and on ranting, blowing your ear drums away with all thats buggin me. at least all that i feel is ok for you to know. things that i wouldnt embarrass myself with of course. then there're people, who has somewhat evolved with time, in the sense that they figured going on blowing about all the shit in life is redundant. might as well just shhh and settle it on a less attention-seeking note. only speaking about or bringing it up when the time is right or when they really feel the need to talk.

perhaps noone has realised this yet but yeah, im actually the sort who needs to give whoever an earful about whatever shit/fun/hearts im going through. i need, ok i WANT to let people know. not cuz i want them to feel sad for me or require special attention from them. but it just always feels better when u talk about it. regardless of whether the matter is of importance or not, emo-fying or heartshearts. i just think its important. i can tell basically anyone about my life now. the reasons why im upset and the causes behind my smiles. how inferior a person i am. how i really think bathing twice a day is a waste of time.(and so i dont, HEH) i would even tell you whats been making my heart skip beats and why it goes on a spasm spree every now and then BUT, for some reasons, i just cant. SOME REASONS. haha.

then again, besides my sis, i barely let that side of me show. one reason maybe being that i know she wouldnt judge me. honestly, even if she does, i dont give a damn. haha. other reason being that i figured everyone's prolly having shit a piece of time of their life too and i wouldnt wanna be such an asshole to make em listen to my nonsensical ramblings. thats why unless they bother asking, i would shut up. BUT SOMETIMES, when i cant control myself, ill intentionally drop hints or talk in a way whereby theyll have no choice but to ask. LOL. im so sorry if i ever did that to u. i couldnt help it. hahahahaha.

i know i sound FOS now and it prolly doesnt make much sense
but if theres someone out there who's in my shoes,
im damn sure you'll immediately get what i wanna say
and if one day geor goes on and on buggin u about your life, be glad and not annoyed.

it only means geor cares for you.
cuz she assumes everyone around her thinks the same.
that theyre just actually secretly waiting for people to show interest in their life before theyre willing to open up. perhaps geor's the only one thinking this way but well, lets just allow her to be in denial. hahahaha.

and sorry for sucha chunky entry
its 3plus and my brain's in a knot now
cant exactly think straight, thus talking in such incoherent fashion

kayaking later at 930!
i think its doomsville for me tonight. as in during the PM.
im gonna be how tired?! insomniac on the loose!!


and superwoman's repeating in my head now.
WTH?!

zzzzzzz

xoxo
2:55 AM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

i think im going cao ge crazy
cuz ive been playin and playing and playing and playing his songs
oh my, AND SO IS ME SIS hahaha

i guess the late nights are wearing me out
im exhausted, totally. drained.
brain's been working unnecessarily and the thought of work tmr is like zzzzzzzzz. GAH.

nvm, im good. geor's good now
NO EMO MONSTER
and i really really really wanna catch a show
like REALLY, its been ages man
soon and if u realised, geor has no inspiration to blog AT ALL.
things she wants to say, are put in the simplest words in her mind right now so, cant let the whole world know what she's thinking what right. so she'll shut up. and she's not even makin sense now. songs are just still bestfriends. speaks/sings your mind. aww.

sadly, no bestfriend tonight.
and i need to go play maria now so yeah,
laters. =))


thudthudthud

xoxo
12:45 AM

Friday, April 21, 2006

i guess this would be the best time to blog
before the birth of another dispute over the reign of this damn lau kok kok com

and so the day started out pretty bad
like i said, i absolutely cannot tolerate working with stupid people
i know i sound damn mean but i was THIS pissed earlier
i'd rather busy myself to death than to clear up all the shit
ok, maybe he's not stupid but yeah, definitely lackin a whole lot of common sense up there. GAH. how am i supp to survive tmr night workin with him?!

off for some haircuttin then fishfishfish
i pray your guppies survive as long as they can jokebox
which reminds me,
ali and ahmad has 2 guppies each.
ali overfed 1 guppy while ahmad underfed 1 guppy.
BOTH DIED.
how many guppies do ali and ahmad both have now?
hahahahahahahahahah. damn lame! ok sorry -.-
the mention of guppies just reminds me of pri school math


ok, i really think i oughtta get going now
running late, ciaociao

xoxo
7:47 PM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

And I know I've always
Just been a friend
But if you look my way
I'll make sure you never hurt again

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I'd cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you

And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly

I remember when you fell in love
I could not believe
That it was not with me
I sent a secret prayer up above
And put my heart away
So that you could be free

I know right now, You're broken in two
But did you know my heart's been
Broken since the day I met you

B4-4 - Endlessly


im sorry to anyone allergic to sappy songs
cuz ive been rather hooked on em lately
woops


mahjong and some tiramisu making tmr
then THURSDAY yo haha
oh well, though im pretty broke
but gah, lets just put that at the end of the list for now

haven been out with u like that for ages i realise, tata sauce
meet again this weekend maybe? i MIGHT stay. haha

there're just so many things sometimes that words alone can never quite just say it all. but what else is there to show when words are all ive got? when nothing else's allowed in a game for two, as such. a game of riddles and facades, i play my own.

see, toldya i was born deprived.


feelings that i cant disguise
damn, this sure is slow suicide

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xoxo
11:50 PM

its been raining alot lately
rainy days slow things down for geor
and makes her feel more at ease
in other words, she loves wet days
hahahaha

im home, after work(DUH)
and, CLOWNDIK DAMN HAPPY FOR GWYN AH!
YOU PASSED TP!! hahahahahaha
which reminds me, my BASIC's this 25th
im not even at my basic, how sad la

j-ed for lunch. hahahaha
sorry, i know i was damn annoying
hahahaha, insisted on coming home when i was at her place alr
LAZY LAR but yeah,
ure making me think/dream of HK and THAILAND ah
THANKS DUDE-.-

im really damn sleepy but no, i cant sleep
ive to go get ready now, meetin ta highness later
im feelin absolutely bad/guilty for pulling so many disappearing stunts on her AND, i miss her la. SEE THIS TA, good enough to appease u? im really really sorry for the past few times, seriously. =/


geor's new theme song
new addiction, DAMN SAD VIDEO too
hopeless LOHMANTIK ah
hahahahahahahaha



Behold this night, still and clear
You look here just like an angel sleeping
I wish I could ease your fears
I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping
In your eyes I would hide
By your side I could defy
The forces tearing us apart
But reality, as it seems
Looking back, is that our dream
Was fated from the start

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate

I'll remain in your hold
Body, mind, heart and soul
As long as I breathe
Though consequence takes its toll
All is out of our control
That's how it will be
So close your eyes my young bride
Listen to me one last time
There's something I have to say
When your faith turns to despair
Always will my love be there
And never fade away

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate
You can't save us
You can't save us

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
The poison's in our veins
It's true
You know that I'd die for you
You know that I'd die for you

Ash - Star-crossed


living in a compromise

xoxo
3:28 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

sian balls
van shit just left not too long ago
just wanna drive my dog mad ah pls LOL
he started digging ON THE FLOOR. hahahaha
WTHECK man

so shatec-ed again today and submitted all the necessary forms
paid the stupid $50 registration fees(damn UNnecessary really)
so i guess im really headin there? sigh. oh well.
i have to admit im relieved i finally have a place to attend. then again, i really dont quite know what else to feel after. gah

saw this dead baby bird today, ant-infested
nothing about how sad or grossed out i mightve felt
i was just, well, really embarrased by the sight of it
and i thought about whatever i was in,
all the thoughts ive been drowning myself with.
the honesty of the bird left my mind speechless, if u know wad i mean
so no more wallowing in self-pity or whatsoever
nonononononono

choices i made on my own, and for all that comes along with it,
its high time i learn to bear
so lets face the music y'all hahahaha.
i was depressed really, i am still but,
everything takes time and im still planning to take my own sweet ones-.- i just wouldnt get as rahrahrah/ouchouchouch as i did alr i guess, try not to at the least. i wouldnt wanna find myself a pain in the butt for others. all the diff position and all that.i really dont wanna get there, ever again.

ok, im supp to call ah ken now yo
hahahaha but before i go,


CLOWNDIK n JOKEBOX saves the day yo
FIGHT THE EMO!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
lame shit




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xoxo
9:00 PM

woke at 7, amazingly
just couldnt put my mind to rest
the constant beeping of the phone wasnt exactly helping either
=/

but no, im not gonna allow doomsville a second chance
emo monstrosity aint sucking geor back to the pool
one night of heart-spasms is more than enough
(ta, i found a new name for it, heart-spasms,
no more someone-squeezing-your-heart, at least less retarted. lol)
HELLO! ONE NIGHT PLEASE!
i couldve died of HEART SEIZURE OK?!
NEVER BEFORE YO?! never thought i would either la-.-

and i never quite felt as stupid/dumb/retarded/idiotic/airhead/bimbo/pissed. i'm plain stupid i swear, wasting stupid time thinkin of stupid things that makes me feel so stupid at the end of the stupid day. someone/something mustve kidnapped my brain! die. my pea of a brain is gone.
but who really cares for a peabrain, anyway. -pokes

its really wrong to be feeling so hyper, this early
tonight sure drained like mad, ok not tonight, LATER.
my perkiness is making me worried, hmmm
and my stomach's kinda producing some sorta cry now
i think its trying to tell me im hungry? shit
foodfoodfoodfoodfood


optimism can really either make or break you
for me, i guess it'll only serve to break an already broken geor
wait, on a second thought, i think it already has
oh well. can anyone figure what geor is feeling now?
prize given to the right guess! =))
RANDOM, SORRY. hahahaha.


ok, chinese song overdose time
cantonese song i mean.


当 这感觉未发生
不知道你光临
我大概还可继续散心
无奈我的心不经意着了灯
为得不到的吸引
令我不纠缠亦不忍

当 他平访在你身
才想到我是好友永远没权力去伤感
忘记受过伤害 施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐 但期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便已如恋人热爱

想 想一世待你好 不需要有出路
那是我唯一快乐 其实期望未算高
不拥抱便跌倒 付出的都不苦恼
被爱的当然未知道
好 即使我未够好
连哭一声抖不配 你便提示我怎做

忘记受过伤害 施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐 但期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便已如恋人热爱

lin feng - wang ji shang hai



facades for sale

xoxo
8:19 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

no work at all in the end, right
i guess its good in a way
caught up with lost sleep and whatever comes along with it

kayaking tmr
everyone's gonna be there i realised
i. feel. weird.
hmmm, that sounded wrong, pardon me
oh well

shit, im feeling sleepy again, gah
zapzapzapzapzap

its 7 now aye
wonder if it rained in the east
like EAST EAST hahahaha
PLS DONT RAIN TMR
cuz im supposed to be psychic!

zzzzzah off to terrorise


我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
i would climb the highest mountain
i would swim the deepest sea
就算要我上天下地
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意
我什么 都愿意


what you get when i listen to chinese songs
hahaha woops


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xoxo
6:49 PM

=))


'nough said

xoxo
12:35 AM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

woke up and found myself in foreign lands today
haven quite felt this way in ages, maybe never
a bittersweet kinda thing
neither here nor there
ive never liked anything im unsure of
as in the way youre clueless what it is
amazingingly this time, its giving me flutters 'stead of the shudders

know how when u listen to particular songs
and the pretty pretty strumming of the guitars?
its like theyre strumming on your heart strings literally
or when the piano hits notes high as ever
you find yourself lifted by it
the weird lil butterflies they say ud get but u never quite believed?
then suddenly you find yourself with no reasons not to

its pretty dangerous the way it makes u look slightly demented
as you smile silly to yourself on the bus/train, anywhere
over stuffs so silly youve never imagined you would
perhaps gaiety comes with only the silliest, most simple things afterall

then outta the blue, your playlist churns out a now-emo song
now-emo being it making you emo only now, never before
cuz the song has never mattered to you
just lately when you realise what it means to somebody else
vicious cycle really, how u feel the ouchouch cuz as u listen
you think of how ouch it makes/made somebody go/went

this is the phase im going through
the foreign state ive landed myself in
the phase when youre not bothered by whats gonna happen
well, not exactly unbothered, just isnt important yet i guess
cuz u already know whats next
and you just dont wanna get there
lengthening as much as you can, the shelf-life of whats going on now
cuz as unfamiliar as the feeling youre having,
youre loving every bit of it, well, almost every bit


hmm. i understand this entry is rather corny to most of you
geor is a hopeless-FillInTheBlanks. hahaha
its early and pls dont rain, for today at least
ok, how bout the rest of this week. haiya

oh and i dont understand,
WHY CANT I SLEEP TILL AS LATE AS I USED TO?!
this is damn sad ok, like seriously
im tired laa. GAH

xoxo
10:36 AM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm heading for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away


matchbox 20 - unwell

i think ive been acting weird lately
thinking oddly
cuz of the weather, probably
then again, it could just be me


WAH and the damn dog stinks BIG TIME
poor boy, ill bathe u soon
like SOON

xoxo
2:06 PM

geor's happy cells are dying, for tonight
feeling drained all of a sudden
its all wearing me out slowly
nvm, an early night will prolly save the day

i found new love today, yet again
haha. some tong en person
wah, her song's like shiokus
and she's gorgeous, TO ME ONLY though
hahaha. but its alright
hmmm


I wish that I could take a journey through your mind
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe


im dangerously outta my mind right now
and to prevent any damage caused to anything/anyone
i should head to bed, NOW

xoxo
1:14 AM

Monday, April 10, 2006

i pronounce demented/sad/bitter/angry songs and geor, partners for life.
for better or worse
till death do they part


its easy thinking and feeling AND finding the so-called hurt in you.
but nothing accentuates the pain as well as my partners do.
occasions like these, with the sky all gloomy and home all alone,
they make the bestest friends.

im not being emo
im not attempting to make myself become emo either
just overwhelmed by the sudden realisation why everyone still prefers sadsadsad songs to happy ones

cuz they never fail to get u right there
even when ure feelin all high and chirpy
cuz nothing hits u more strongly and knocks u over more than feeling that, (in ta's words) someone-squeezing-your heart feeling.

and its nice to feel that way, every once in awhile
cuz nothing gets more real than that
the way it chokes all the air right up there
and u going, 'shit, i think my lungs and heart are mating'
cuz they feel all tangled up
after which, u start to feel ur very own presence, that u are indeed actually here and not just drifting around in ur everyday

wah, 2nd entry of the day in 3hrs. lol
wtheck hahaha oh and right,
i know i sound a lil sick in the mind sometimes
and i make it sound like im sucha emotionally unsound person
i hope i wouldnt come off as too much of a scare to u guys
cuz im not, i just tend to think alot on stupid things,
that matters to me, somehow, sometimes
hmmm just rather emotional la
and for once, finally, im proud to say this out loud.

'today, i cried.'


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xoxo
12:12 PM

so no work in the end
down with a temp, flu and whatever that comes along with it

lethargic and stoned
brain's not working the way it should
cuz if it is, i wouldnt be up at such unearthly hours
starving but yeah, guess ill hafta wait all the way to 2 before theres food.

was nice talkin to u really
though its been ages we last had sucha long proper conversation
was even nicer hearing u play after so damn long!
AND correcting my eng, as usual. lol
as much as i know youre the only one i can $#*&$@% to,
u can always call me u know
for your coming next 3 weeks at least
just dont call at the wrong time aye? haha
i feel bad for the previous few incidents =/
and ya la ya la, geor still loves you la
dont worry so much about stuffs
TRUST ME MAN. i think itll work out just fine, really =))


i feel like rambling on and on now hahaha
no, not sad stuffs nor emo shit
just ramble happily on and on BUT
we all know a blog is too public for geor's happy ramblings
and, she doesnt wanna end up sounding too corny or whatsoever
scaring everyone away, like yoo hoo so yeah
hmm. this entry is damn long and stupid
like wth am i talking about?

sorry, ive no clue to it either. HAR.


Oh would it mean anything, if you knew
What I'm left imagining
In my mind, in my mind
Would you go, would you go
Kiss the rain


stuck-in-the-head song for the moment

xoxo
10:14 AM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

lets talk about geor's emotions today how bout it.
i seriously think that my moods/feelings/emotions actually have a life of their own.
its like a separate living thing within me.
they come and go as they please, leaving me with numerous highs and countless lows.
most importantly, theyre manipulatively disturbing.

anyway, they decided to be nice today and made geor a really happy kid
until it started getting late, they were worn and gave geor hell of a time
not that geor cant manage on her own but she just started thinking all of a sudden,
'who will be the one to hold me, the night the sky falls down?'
evan and jaron does this to people every once in awhile i guess
and yes, i listen to them. haha.

oh and in case youre wondering, no im not emo, seriously
just startled by that thought i had. =))
sometimes, u just cant help but wonder bout things like that
my brain works really hard at such ridiculous issues so yeah.
basically i just spend alot of time thinking of frivalous stuffs
though i know there're many more things that deserves my attention
maybe im just a born thinker. haha.
i make myself sound so intelligent on such stupid issues


anything i say about you would be an understatement
you have me at a loss for words, completely
i'd call this the perfect standstill
the way how things will only remain the way it is
i guess im just easily contented? lol
proliferation of the hearts

xoxo
1:57 AM

Thursday, April 06, 2006

feelin exceptionally sleepy this thurs evening or rather, night
i think ive yawned 156741 times and still counting
oh goodness but its too early for me to sleep

stayed home whole of the day, most of the day at least
went to the docs with the sister
she's got a weird crackling knee. yuck.
i totally detest/fear such bone related matters. -shrugs
had lunch then some dvd renting before coming home
to sit in front of the com, bitching and laughin dumbly at people.
we're meanies i know, we dont deny. hahaha.
wad makes u think we're not laughed at ourselves. tsk.
then 'alfie'-ed away. quite a waste of time actually, the movie i mean
but alls good. the staying home part and all.
but im curious why i always feel like sucha retard in front of my sis
hahahaha. nvm.

laters. im sure ill be back.

xoxo
8:12 PM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

and we all wonder how much it takes to make geor's day
its as simple as this and as straightforward as that

i think im even gonna smile in my sleep
i dunno why.
i think im high, on air.

=))

xoxo
1:21 AM

Monday, April 03, 2006

boo.
where art thou, my superwoman.


that song's been on a playin marathon since 11 last night.
now isnt it obvious why geor is on a superwoman frenzy?
blame it on tv.
blame it on zhiyang.
blame it on cao ge.
blame it on geor.

xoxo
11:52 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

its been quite awhile since ive last had Mr fall-outta-love-vibes come banging on this heart-of-a-door of mine. its quite amusing, on the fact that ive never even been in any sorta love of late. not literally, at least. oh well, what the brain and your cardiovascular shit thing does to you is really way outta explaination sometimes, i just have to admit.

and geor has this really great imgaination all the time, for all kinda things. (*note, imagination, not creativity.lol) thus, she thinks so so much, that she mixes up reality and this mini land of her own. perhaps thats why she's able to lie so fluently all the time about all stuffs big and small. now we know why geor lies w/o even ever blinking. ok, maybe not regarding all stuffs la huh. come to think of it, this's quite sad right. tsktsk. nvm. im rambling away brainlessly. THEN AGAIN, this mini land of my own acts quite well as a comfort zone too. ok, overshare of random shit. HEH.

candice ah dear candice,
WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!
hahahahaha. ken and i are rotting our arses off
and we're bored shit. i just need to rant.
PARDON ME.
and for the sake of being random
i cant put a stop to the superwoman song.

you are my superwoman. lalalalala.

anyway, guess im seeing the slightest form of color from the mixture of green and red. its a brand new color, one i doubt anyone has ever deciphered. as much as i'd like to deny, it spells..

friend

=/

xoxo
11:48 PM

Saturday, April 01, 2006

mr keith urban is keepin me up
just wanna pull me back to doomsville
sad sad song on a sad sad night and u get a sad sad geor

so the night pries into my deepest and darkest thoughts
touching on stuffs ive been turning my back on all these while
even the state of denial fails u sometimes
and when it hits, its like ouchouchouchouchouch
i just cant believe the plight ive gotten myself into.
emo wave tonight? yeah, just for one night
all will be gone by the break of dawn, no?


what do u get when u mix green and red?

zilch.

xoxo
12:41 AM