Wednesday, August 31, 2005

fuck

fcuk

kcuf

ufkc

kfcu


get a grip geor
u suck big time

xoxo
2:27 PM

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

happy birthday Tan Ying Xi (DOM)

hahaha
and ure plain ridiculous i swear
sorry i'm still at it ah


but seriously
i guess birthdays are overrated once u hit past 16 17-ish
i mean there's pretty much nothin to look forward to anymore.
for majority people nowadays,
its just another night of partying wit U in the limelight

and like alotta other people,
they just tend to get that repulsive feelin when it nears
its like u anticipated the arrival of something too much,
like u had ur expectations for that day so friggin high,
u just cant afford for it to screw
and to avoid disappointment,
u sneak away from it

so to camouflage that anxiety
u doll it up wit nonchalance
and say things like, ' its just another day la'
i'm sure many do
(not just referrin to birthdays pls)
well i mean i do at least
and not that i think its anythin bad mind you


talk bout being honest and bare
how bare and naked can we expect from people la pls
i mean ok eg, guys may be pervs(not all, i know)
and enjoy sneakin glances at overly-exposed women
but that doesnt mean they think its alright for woman to go around undressed
an amount of like covered-up is necessary la
the right dosage of course

i know there're many out there now who stamps
'i think the world is so pretentious, its wrong and i cant stand it'
across their forehead
but oh well

wah.
ive no clue why i'm rambling on and on bout this outta the blue man
maybe seein all the politics at work triggered my train of thoughts
thats what i call pretentious man
how hypocritical people can get for their own benefits in monetary terms
you never know who's sincere who's not
and the one u call friend may very well be the who gave u that push towards the edge
its way more real than the 'i do this cuz i wanna be cool' pretence


oh my, turtle just made me instant noodles
well, if things can get better
then i hope its soon
i dont want my hopes to be dashed all over again


And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

switchfoot - let that be enough


oh and i'm damn amazed by what u observed
i think my whole system's givin way man
but this's the first after sucha long time i finally found myself so into something
like i really wanna get it done properly
i mean ive been screwin up for so long,
i think its time i set at least some stuffs right
ive roles to play and corrections to make
though i'm sure there's still a big part of me u still think is very wrong
haha oh well
at least thats one step taken forward i see for myself?

xoxo
5:38 PM

Monday, August 29, 2005

being at work all day has taught me to appreciate the time stayed at home
even if it means very much doing nothing,
its still bliss i swear
the fact that bed is lying there's comforting enough already


something seems to be tellin me that i sorta like the way things are now
the monotony of it
not feelin obliged to do anything
the not meetin up wit people part
i dont think my grey matter's ready to wreck itself for conversations just yet
this's good
at least for now

i think being alone now's a good thing
as in not literally ah
sld get the drift la
and i dont think i'd wanna change that
not for quite awhile at least
who can stand someone whose free only 3 hrs in the day anyway
hahaha


and i love my sis pls
(HAH! eat that)
she did everything for me
THIS whole thing
i mean, ya i know i suck
its a universal fact


and i'm sorry for anyone who ever reads this thing
i mean i very much just rave on my everyday
and theyre actually pretty redundant information anyone can have
haha
oh well


I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

the spill canvas - all hail the heartbreaker


you cause my comatose to begin

xoxo
3:38 PM

Friday, August 26, 2005

eventually,


eventually.


eventually?

xoxo
4:32 PM

Thursday, August 25, 2005

i made friends with my shadow today

and after so long,
i felt less alone

the dark familiar figure sure beats the dozen faces
they're always around yet leaves no traces

for a moment,
i thought i was happy

xoxo
4:38 PM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.
I will be pure

No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold

bright eyes - no lies, just love


the song sounds so sad, yet so hopeful dont u think?
ok, maybe its just me

i'm tired really.
not literally but ya.

oh wouldnt anyone be nice and scream me my lullaby tonight?
i'd be greatful, in a way or another

xoxo
4:03 PM

help


i'm bored like mad.

rah
eat shit and die

xoxo
9:31 AM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

the net has been pretty much of a bitch the past few days
jus like me?
hmmm.


i think i'm fallin sick
my eyes are red like nothin
and ive a feelin theyre jumpin outta the sockets soon
oh, and my fingers are madly infatuated wit these two lil eyeballs
and the lids.
somebody chain them up please?
before i start sanding my eyelids again.

for your info, from some source(reliability is fully doubted)
rubbing ur precious lil eyeBALLS = effect of sandin em wit sandpaper
so imagine the REAL thing,
u'll get perfectly smooth and SHINING eyes after some polishin wit autosol

i'm just nonsense-ing around to keep my fingers
on the friggin board rather than my eyes
allow me to repeat myself, WHERE IS MY CHAIN?!

and i need shades desperately la
before i spread everyone wit eye-mense
ok, that sounds DAMN GROSS
but seriously, i have pust/puss comin out
i dunno how to spell la

and as i type,
i can feel my eyelids kissing wit every passin second
slowly formin a line

perfect
i shall jus chop my fingers tmr at work then
wit my superb vision
isnt that like TOTALLY COOL?!

-slaps forehead-

oh well
i dun remember starin at anythin to ignite the bloody sore
rah

and sat was alright
though we didn do much
xiang left before i got there la
thanks ah
...

and i jus DVD-ed my past nights away
'cept for fri
pooled till 2.30 pls
and we always get special tables playin beside us
this time, there was this pretty lime-green sweater wearin girl
motivation ah right yx?
hahaha

oh! maybe that caused eye-mense
whatever
haha

this is super long, super dry entry
not that any of mine was wet but ya
ok, lame shit

my eyeballs need rest
i shall place them to the wash machine now

ciao ciao

funny how ure still missed

xoxo
2:19 AM

Friday, August 19, 2005

'tom and jerry' was playin live at the restaurant today
unlike the orginal story, jerry got scalded and fled like mad
wasn exactly a pleasant sight but,
entertainment level's definitely on par wit the cartoon


all the mini unknown cuts on my hands jus scream i swear
whenever i come into contact wit salt and lemon
which is often like peeing

ouch

but all it takes is some gettin used to
and i'm damn good at that,
am i not?

i'm sure ull agree wit me
afterall, its been so long
u should know that best
who else?

and if ure thinkin i'm just being ridiculous again
stack ur pillows higher tonight and think about it
if u still think so
den maybe i am?

its ur call anyway, as usual
i'm jus washed away by a huge wave of replays
which got my train runnin
and set my thoughts ablazed


And I tried so hard,
And I've done my part,
And not to mention most of all of yours
Try and feel, Try and listen,
Try and think of what you're missing,
Try to look into my eyes.

TRY

Goodbye

Sing this song for me
And tell me how
you'll never leave my side
I'll meet you at 7
I miss you already
Goodbye to you
The last goodbye i'll ever say to you
Replaying memories
You'll never leave my side


the starting line - cheek to cheek


u always never do understand wads wrong
maybe thats cuz u never tried hard enough to?

den again, its just my guess
it doesnt matter now
hasnt for very long already anyway
cuz if it did
nasty things wun have happened

sorry if i'm being angsty and mean and bitter and stupid

the asswipe in me is acting up


i need entertainment
will anyone take me out soon?
haha

xoxo
5:48 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

so much for sleepin earlier tonight
i dont supp i can take any off days this week or the next
and maybe not even the one after
cuz ill need the extra cash for friggin bills and whatnot

well, thats if my lousy body can take
sleepin at 5 and wakin at 9 everyday
which will also include
work,
wrok,
wkor,
wokr,
krow.......

c'mon tell me wad else is there
tsktsk

ok, maybe things arent that bad
i'm just feelin like a bowl of rotten salad
wit a touch of fcukin anger
and a pinch of desperation

and i jus had to feed it to the wrong person somemore
i thought she cud eat anything jus like she claims she does
apparently not
i forgot her seasons for eating
it changes very quickly and randomly


feelin like i'm in shoulder height poo
fcukin dammit

fcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcuk

on a lighter note,
boss said he'll buy me the uniform tmr (chef)
i hope he wun
just want me to be embarrassed all the way to the north pole la
i know nuts and ya
its jus rubbish, absolutely

wahh..
i can just bite off the head of the next person who gets on my nerve

smile-inducer
where're u?

wait, do i even have one now?
hmmm

xoxo
5:41 PM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

dammit

i'm on my way again
stare as i fall
and listen hard to the words i try to speak
as everything whizz by


And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
And live for the moment now

the spilling canvas - the tide

xoxo
5:59 PM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

my clothes feel like somebody else's throw-aways
my skin doesn't seem to hold
my soul doesn't seem to fit

tsktsk

does anyone know where i can get fix-it kits?
it could come it pretty handy now

hmmm


feasted(is there even sucha word?) on khong guan biscuits the whole day
i think it's gonna get worse
addictive shit and it being hell cheap is a major plus

finally ate prata and..
it was bought wit our last cents and i bet that mustve been
the most cracked-head meal ever
had to search for FIVE friggin cents to actually get our precious drink
and WOW, i found TEN cents
FIVE cents EXTRA!

wth seriously

damn pathetic

hahaha


PJ again?
oh dear
my life enjoys hide and seek
its lost every once in awhile,
like it is now


i feel like boozing my night away
no no,
i wanna save
and buy camera-s

i hope this wun be just talk again
-shrugs-

xoxo
4:39 PM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

feelin totally like the half-empty glass of water
lying around the corner

i'm dryin up soon
and i cant care to worry

throw not at me two cents
i wun be bothered

now wud someone kindly remind me,
jus wad is the difference between oblivious and ignorance?
i reckon i cant ever quite set em apart anymore



oh well.

the sight of the couple next to my table today made me feel,
weirdly comfortable and good
ive no clue why

and i'm feelin a tad guilty now for having raised my voice

i think i sld just sleep my random-ness away now
=/

xoxo
5:38 PM

Friday, August 12, 2005

i found my new love since pool fusion
and thats pool junction
the difference is more than jus a mere word man
like whoaa

oh well.

sleep is knockin on my door tonight
so ciao ciao



now i start to go when the green turns to red
i know i should be dead
well given my state, i would be
in time to come

xoxo
6:02 PM

Thursday, August 11, 2005

i'm feelin hell tired like the bacon in the freezer
fat, frozen and dead

busy like mad in the mornin
plus i had to do all the friggin dishes
clean this and wipe that

i dont even think ive ever washed that much plates in my entire life?
like jus want me to drown in ma ma lemon pls?
oh my

i WILL sleep earlier today
i can feel the bugs creepin to me again
oh and this's random but,
i feel like going to the airport now eh
haha


i'm no weather forecast
i cant predict when the rain will come

i'm no x-men
i cant alter the weather when lightning strikes

but i have my blue umbrella
i cant stop the storm but i can cover you
so, ya

i'll be nice and we can all share la
hahaha
i'm shit generous man and hell lame
jus shoot me



When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather, in a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, ohhh ohhhh

She's running out again....
She's running out, she's run, run, run, run....run....

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

radiohead - creep


where is everybody?
hmm..

this is a sign man
i should sleep

the coconut bruise's still not lookin good
tsktsk

xoxo
4:04 PM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

ouch

i got hit by coconut
it missed the rabbit but got me instead

tsktsk

i sld learn to not sit below coconut trees so much now
hahahaha

hmmm

the coconut drove me mad
help!


where is rabbit now?


oh my, i'm damn FOS now
haha

tired dead pls
my days are always so stagnant
do something bout it geor
tsktsk

i know this is random but,

i want intellectual rabbit
ok not intellectual but like thinks quite abit kind
like natalie imbruglia sort!
ok thats too much for me to ask for actually
ahh but heck

as long as rabbit is nice to talk to
and comfortable pls
den many things will go


i shall slowly hunt
-raises brows-


have i mentioned i'm tired?
oh and..
i like grapes.

hahahahahaha

sleep, please step forward tonight
i have work tmr man

xoxo
6:06 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

There's a tear in the fabric of your favorite dress
And i'm sneaking glances.
Looking for the patterns in static
They start to make sense the longer i'm at it.

Ivory lines lead
Oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho

Your heart is a river that flows from your chest
Through every organ
Your brain is the dam
And i am the fish who can't reach the core.

Ivory lines lead
Oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho

instincts are misleading
You shouldn't think what you're feeling
They don't tell you what you know you should want

Ivory lines lead
Oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho

death cab for cutie - lightness


pardon me
for i suck

xoxo
6:12 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Been down and I’m wondering why
These little black clouds keep walking around with me, with me
Waste time and I’d rather be high
Think I’ll walk me outside and buy a rainbow smile but be free, be all free

So maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way home
I look around at a beautifiul life
I been the upper side of down
been the inside of out but we breathe, we breathe

I want a breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean, wanna take my time for me, it’s all free

So maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way home

stereophonics - maybe tomorrow


geor is basically non-existent
cus she's made up of lies,
things that only survive in name
and not in truth


tsktsk


weekends are worth lookin forward to this week
good


beats plain work for the least

ciao

xoxo
5:46 PM

Friday, August 05, 2005

after the more-than-an-hour long wait for the free ride,
i'm finally home safe and sound.
we realised we were too broke to go home after steamboat and bowlin
hahaha.
danielle's very nice friend rocks balls la
and he drives one of the car that i fancy somemore



'teh-ness can be cultivated'
words of danielle. hahaha
ta, ive finally found u ur match for being teh
and thats dingding (charmaine)
-thumbs up-
super pls
and danielle is quite damn too
are all kc girls like that?
tsktsk


somehow,
i suddenly feel like i'm finally seein a lil of wad i want
the mini talk wit j knocked mini senses into my mini brain
i think i will try going back to sch nxt yr
private or whatever
thats if wad i'm workin for now dusn turn out right


and the thing dingding said her lect told her, is pretty true
like more education dusn exactly mean ull get more
its all up in the head
cuz scoring a's and real-life workin are two diff matters
there's no one way to things
though no education wud mean losing out,
it depends alot on wad ur head is capable of to stand out


surely i am not as dumb as i think, am i?
nah.. cant be.
HAH.


tannin on sunday? i hope ah.
seeing mua chees form sounds fun
hahaha


have i mentioned that ive fallen for thirteen senses?
i like their effect on me
and i need a fcukin mp3 player
yes, i DONT HAVE one
rahh


just a lil put off
thats all

xoxo
5:43 PM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Everybody says that their looking for a shelter,
Got a lot to give but I don't know how to help her,
I should just let it go till they learn how to grow,
And how to liberate.

Everybody says that she's looking for a shelter,
Got a lot to give but I don't know how I felt her,
They should just let it go till these cities learn to grow,
And how to liberate.

Silence is easy,
it just becomes me,
You don't even know me,
all lie about me.

Everybody says that I'm looking for a home now,
Looking for a boy or I'm looking for a girl now,
I can still let it go, I can still learn to grow,
Into a child again.

Silence is easy,
it just becomes me,
You don't even know me,
why lie about me.

Silence is easy, it just becomes me,
You don't even know me,
why do you hate me.

starsailor - silence is easy


my ears are seriously contemplating suicide
if ure gonna continue ur naggin
so please, have a heart
stop it


and hell am i pissed
so much for others exploiting me
it feels more like ure the one
at least operators are paid per min
i dun and i still had to trade my sleep for shit
tsktsk
my math dusn exactly suck, that badly
the act of appreciation actually even cost u anythin


oh and u
ya la, no need to think again, its u
hello,
uve been pretty much thought of today, day b4, the previous and...blabla..
in short, ure missed.
i dun think ive ever directed that to u b4,
i mean besides mentionin it vaguely so ya.
and no, all of this is not as overrated as it seems
not even, i think


oh well
geor is jus feelin a lil trashy today
and feels very much like ranting/listenin now
hmmm..
lets see who's up at this hour

xoxo
5:27 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

mind's on wheels
going at a 120

someone, give it a brake
drink and drive dusn quite seem to go
hmmm

right


kinda like a work of art
shot an arrow through my heart
even though we're worlds apart
i cant deny

this's like from almost 2 yrs back, or less?


i need a hobby to kill time
a low-maintenance one
but den again, my hobbies has a real short life-span


i think i'm going a lil mad now too
cuz i dunno wad to do
cuz there's apparently nothin i can do bout it?
but i really feel like doing something laa
walau
den how?
sit here and wait for coconut to drop?

dammit

xoxo
4:14 PM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

its 12 now i shall attempt sleepin earlier tonight
before i officially go berserk

whatever help, candles, milk and music i can find
i shall put to use
damn
i could sleep whenever wherever man

my eyes felt 2/3 smaller today
when my eyes are actually damn small to begin wit
and i wasn exactly wad u'd call friendly today
was major snappy and jus cudn shut my trap for nuts


i hate the nights
cuz they fancy takin my mind out for long strolls
and theyre never respnsible enough to bring it back

whatever

xoxo
3:02 PM

Monday, August 01, 2005

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

vertical horizon - you're a god

quite damn old a song aye
hmm

i think i'm fallin sick
these late nights are draining the life outta me
i heard warm milk helps sleepin
but i'm not sure if we can jus boil milk like that
can we?

cannot sick please
if not no work = no pay man

yes, i'm gonna be niao this month
TRY TO AT LEAST
bettin on a macho marga at cafe iguana
i can only spend 200 this month
HAH!
eat that man!

who's gonna be supportive and think i can make it??
pls ah.. even if u think not, DONT come and be a wet blanket ah


sigh
i'm damn tired

ROARS

xoxo
6:29 PM

i hear the clock ticking
i feel my eyes shut tight
my brain isn keen on sleepin
and that organ's all sunken inside


i feel sleep deprived

help


any cure, people?

xoxo
7:51 AM