Sunday, July 31, 2005

i cant believe the nonsense i was talking bout last night
haha.
oh well, its dusted off my board now

hmm..

just got back from 'why not'
first time there and i must say it was quite abit of a, say..
eye-opener? haha..
was just quite damn amused i think
but as usual, clubbing's just not my cup of tea
ta, i hope u had a great day today
danielle, thanks for extending ur night out for me man
haha.. ure the best laa

was late in meetin eileen, again, today
haha. the bloody uncle refused to drive me to suntec u see
even when i was comfortably sitting IN THE CAB already
had to get off please?!
pooled as usual and no, its not a waste of time, its fun
though i must admit i suck for the amount i play?
oh welllll..

off to library to see dearest danielle
had dinner b4 headin to TCC

ANNOUNCEMENT : the TCC there is damn nice to slack ah pls
u sit on beanbags (which we unfortunately had to wait for)
on the floor and they have cool adverts/design magazines
a nice place to chill and like heave a mini sigh-of-relieve
like u know, fall asleep? ok, that sounds wrong


damn, no ECP today = no blackout girl
haha. but had fun so everythin's alright i guess


eileen, ure the best and worst person for me to talk to
u read me like a book
and peel my skin off like a banana!
haha.. i feel extremely exposed. =/
sigh.. but i guess ure right,
wah, i'm feelin ABIT stupid now only really
ABIT laa
haha


i'm like deep in thoughts now
the train's runnin
i cant believe i know so little bout myself
i guess its only now that i'm losing hold of wad i sld know
bad, this's bad
i need life-plannin classes NP business students have
haha


steamboat on thurs, i hope
which reminds me, i think i'm hungry
heh

this's talkin entry
no form of thinkin or whatsoever
which means i sld sleep

buenas noches

xoxo
6:04 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

I sold my soul for the second time
Cos the man, he don't pay me
I begged my landlord for some more time
He said "Son, the bills waiting"

My best friend called me the other night
He said "Man, are you crazy?"
My girlfriend told me to get a life
She said "boy, you lazy"

But I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine
If you give me a minute
A mans got a limit
You cant get a life if your hearts' not in it

I lost my faith in the summertime
Cos it don't stop raining
The sky all day's as black as night
But I love complaining

I begged my doctor for one more line
He said "Son, words fail me"
It ain't no place to be killing time
But I guess I'm just lazy

oasis - the importance of being idle


the stillness in the morning air at where i work
its dreadful
makes me feel all hollow and brittle
the air feels so dead,
as though ure walkin on threads
and might jus collapse anytime

=/

i'm exhausted
my phone stinks
back's aching
walau
rahh
haha


i miss you
and i know thats irrelevance, bullshit and noone-gives-a-damn
at their extremes

oh well..

-laugh stupid-
(yes eileen, the kind that u always laugh at me for)
hahaha

my BTS has forsaken me today due to laziness
Break-Time-Saviour --> eileen KHANG
and i was left all alone to bore myself to death
-grins-
u owe me one ahh


ydays are just broken bridges
while tmrs never fail to disguise
one day i shall fix the route to the opposite side
and unmask whatever's on the other


i'm going berserk
cuz,
i'm too free?

wah.
damn FOS

i sld sleep

wan an

xoxo
4:41 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

wads being written and wad is read,
is too off for me to comprehend
weaving in and out like needle and thread,
i think its time i pricked my hands
all's moving too fast by a tad,
brows're locked wondering when it'll end
'this is life' thats wad they said,
but sorry no i wun bend my back to that


sigh

help


Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneathe the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a Beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Larger then the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide, as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

What a Beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe i will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

the afters - beautiful love

xoxo
3:17 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

bored to the max
and my brain feels vacuumed

i'm going to the kitchen tmr,
if nth goes wrong that is
-crosses fingers-
i hope man


today's chi songs playing day
i feel very much like kbox-ing now
ok, soon maybe
any takers?


ull have geor 'serenade' u to sleep
wit her david tao and lee hom
muahahahaha


i feel absolutely senseless now
if by any chance uve the slightest clue wads going on,
fill me in man


and how i wish its christmas season now man
so i can have more of make-up santas and reindeer


i realise i digress alot
ah whatever la

ciao

xoxo
4:59 PM

Don't go, don't go telling me you're alright
There's no room for getting uptight
Don't go saying that you're OK
When you're lonely

I said baby,
don't go telling me we're over
When you know you're my one and only lover
And I won't go saying that we're OK
When we're lost without each other
'Cause we're lost without each other
'Cause we're lost without each other

hanson - lost without each other


stuck in the head
damn catchy

my life is boring
i cant help but want more outta it
but i cant just plainly want it,
i gotta do something to it man
like wad man?

pick up some stupid course?
learn a few dumb skills?
no man,
i want a thrillin ride
with its fair share of ups and downs
make me go 'whooaaah'

ok, its always only talk
tsktsk
HEH


this's boring
rahh

xoxo
4:56 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005

haiyo
the blackout girl thing is gettin me on my nerves
jokin only laa
eyecandy can
tsktsk


my brain is fried to the max
though ive no work to rush
no deadlines to meet
no classes to attend
no people to entertain
pretty much NOTHIN going on in my everyday
'cept for my job
=/


and in amazing contrast to everyone
i look forward to mondays
despite all the MONDAY BLUES they get
its like one of the only days i cant wait for to come
-shruggs-
only yx knows why maybe?
hahaha
its pretty dumb i know


i'm closing in to the brink
of gettin totally off sync

brain's on strike now
isnt workin right
i think i should sleep

xoxo
3:56 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl blackout girl

amazingly, there wasn any typo
hahahaha

and yes, i wanna head to ECP again
and get shocked by megawatt smiles from blackout girl
next week aye tan ying xi?
oh, and i'm not a HUM SUP LOW please


and i dun like 'the island'
'cept for the gorgeous scarlett johannson?
DAMN HOT
hahahaha
the shows makes me think, negative
like WTH i know but ya,
it still does


Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do
I'd do anything for her

The way she sees it's me
On her caller I.D.
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Still ringing in my head

the click 5 - just the girl


why cant i ever be the lucky one having good things come my way?
tsktsk
i'm sick of hearin people tell me that santa doesnt exists
=/
hahahahaha.
as quoted on 'the island', in a way

sorry DOOD,
it aint byebye yet
i'm still like just comin up of ways to say hello?
so in the meantime,
stay cautious
though it wun really matter to u i know
hahaha

i'm like entertaining myself aint it?
sorry guys,
this's wad goes runnin in geor's head at 3.30 am,
trash

take care miss reindeer
i hope that red glow rubs off soon
=))

xoxo
6:29 PM

i guess it sldnt be no prob to sleep like the sweetest child tonight

as long as i wun wake up to find a stranger
starin back at me tmr


and i swear ive no clues why i bought that shoe
geor is irritatingly the worse impulsive shopper around
den again, i still like it
HAH
i see no sense or link at all here

TSKTSK

xoxo
5:57 PM

indian pokering was fun
glad i actually went in the end
though i was damn unlucky playin it
when i say damn, i swear its DAMN

haha

to be perfectly honest
i'm more than a lil tipsy now
i cant quite figure out wads going on in my head

but based onwad i cud rem
was damn hilarious jus now though
we were like tryin hard to get that black-out-girl's no
but apparently, we cudn la
damn funny

'is there sucha drink called what's your name and number?'
DAMN lame!
thank goodness it wasn me who had to ask
hahahahahaha
but i must admit it was hell lotta fun
yx, seek, sheryl lake/lek and beverly was there

was emo like mad b4 i dunno why
wah
i think i'm becoming very womanly
for pms-ing so frequently
hhahahaa

rubbish

nights all

and sorry eileen

i dunno why i'm sayin that but ya

=/

geor cant think str now
can she?


mana samados
haha
bourno notte

xoxo
4:46 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

i'm like the yellowed wall off the corridor
with sprouting cracks climbing up north
and i think the ceiling has got something for me
cuz its moving in closer every night

i'm claustrophobic mind you


fcuk it

i really dun fcuking understand whats ur fcuking prob
i dun wanna see the fcukin things u do in ur drunken stupor
dun take wad u dun wanna feel remorseful bout on me
thats ur side of things to take care bout, none of mine
if u dun want me around, fcukin let me know
i dun want an eyesore around either

this's the reason why i dun appreciate my presence at home

oh and wads the fcukin prob wit me and breakin glasses?!
i swear they fcukin hate me and its as though theyre cursed upon my touch
they either
1. fall to their death
2. crushed
3. or theyll just fly and perform suicidal acts


pardon my use of language
i must say these are just some of the things my puny brain is best at conjuring sometimes


xiang, i guess we're on the same side of the globe now
but anyway, anything ill do to cheer u up
name it and ull get it
as long as it dusn require $$
call me if u need to alright?
haha


dammit
i sound damn angry
and senseless
den again,
indeed i am

xoxo
3:42 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

eyes're refusing to shut
when everyone else is craving for time to even wink
wtf geor

this song's been playin like mad in my head, on the com
and on the speakers in the room

the way the whole song goes,
its just damn sensual and nice
beats me why
it sld be sleep inducing too but apparently,
its not workin


Watch the sunrise
Say your goodbyes
Off we go
Some conversation
No contemplation
Hit the road

Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don't ever let go Oh No

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
But can they keep it
Oh No they can't

I'm driving fast now
Don't think I know how to go slow
Where you at now
I feel around
There you are

Cool these engines
Calm these jets
I ask you how hot can it get
And as you wipe off beads of sweat
Slowly you say "I'm not there yet!"

maroon5 - secrets

emo-coaster to the max
twirls around like mad flying cow

xoxo
6:09 PM

Trying hard to speak and
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
So part of the plan

When something is broken
And you try to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way you can

I'm diving off the deep end
You become my best friend
I wanna love you
But I don't know if I can
I know something is broken
And I'm trying to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way I can

coldplay - XnY



feelin like the mat beneath the broken door
filled wit dirt and aching sore
dustin me jus wun help anymore
so lay ur fcukin feet off and shock as i soar


and u, cheer up man
wipe em tears
talk to him about it
its not exactly a very pleasant thing to see u act like that
i'm just a call away man

i guess that call certified everything
that yes, its all in the pages now
for recollection purposes only
period

something for me to be glad about at least
then there comes another to fret for
georr, ure always gettin urself in shit u cant handle
tsktsk

i sld jus scram aye?

-dusts dusts-

look at geor disperse into the air!
argh, fat hope man


aku kangen kamu?
sia la
i tak bolek ta han myself sia

and i think i got the cue
am jus hyper-sensitive when it comes to these
oh well
sldve known
-shruggs-

xoxo
4:13 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

restin on a borrowed cloud

reducing slowly, but surely


fragmented


inadequate


it might as well be time for the plunge now

xoxo
1:21 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

i felt like a hopeless loh-man-tik today
i repeat, felt
-shruggs-
must be all the class 95-ing in the kitchen that caused it
haha. oh well..



even if tmr will make u cry,
make u kneel from right inside
no, u will not take half a risk,
not walk around like ure deceased
for i believe bravery in you exists

cuz u sure dont strike me as a weakling miss independent
*nods a-matter-of-factly*

and it seems the glasses are havin a party wit me
happily breakin everyday
its 3 more for the record, for the THIRD day
thank goodness they dun dock my pay

the weather's been good
all comfy and nice
sleep inducing though but who cares


i hate people who suck-up i swear
and there're jus so many around
bloody hell

suck my toes and die please?

ahh whatever

xoxo
5:21 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

Back and forth that voice of yours keeps me up at night
Help me search to find the words that eat you up inside
I go side to side like the wildest tides in your hurricane
And I only hide what is on my mind because I can't explain

What if I do love
What if I don't?
I'd have to lose everything just to find you
What if I do love
What if I don't
I'd have to lose everything just to find you

It's my turn, this solo burns so throw me in the fire
Trophies earned and lessons learnt, my wicked little lies
We can pave new roads with the cold creed stones,
wind them through the pines
Should I stay or should I go alone?
I cannot decide

What if I do love
What if I don't?
I'd have to lose everything just to find you
What if I do love
What if I don't
I'd have to lose everything just to find you

foo fighters - what if i do


yes, what if i do?
its pretty clear already though aint it?
but u know, i might feel better if i do
wah.. i'm like talkin to myself, again

my head is giving me life or death,
but i cant choose

i cant believe i'm talkin bout this ever so often
its a lil overload aint it?
omg. haha..
thats definitely never my intention ah
oh well..


oh and good, xiang
thank goodness u like it
haha


sleepin is the best medicine so..


hi bed,
nights world

xoxo
5:02 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

consume, consuming, consumed


u jus gotta let it loose every once in awhile
dun pull it too tight
cuz it might jus snap anytime


I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do
I'm too lost in you

too lost in you - sugababes

i friggin cant stand this song now
it seems to be playin everywhere this two days
reminds me of wad seek said jus now
like how dumb i was
and how bad it felt
cant believe i allowed something as such to happen
like how stupid can one get please?!
though its been ages but ya
i jus feel tremendously stupid for some of the things i did


i'm bloody random and outta point
and things are flashing in my mind
like a polaroid snappin its way thru
gets to me faster than than i want it to
and damn blinding man
i'm camera shy please

dying already la
bedtime man

ciao

xoxo
6:07 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

time dusn wait,
jus like sepia yesterdays
everyday we sway,
actions collide wit words we say

everyone picks pace but lets choose to go slow
i'd rather be trampled than to go with the flow
and ill bleed once in awhile to see that its real,
that the pain i feel is not just part of the deal

rahh..
i cant believe i'm still up
i'm tired to the max really

thank goodness i didn hit the sack earlier though
was glad i could actually play 'ears' for the least
doubt i actually helped but, hope ure gonna be feelin better aye?
seriously, brighten up a lil


its all bout being hypocritical now aint it?
as in people
hmmm.. i do not wish to talk bout that
its too wide and depressin a topic

plus the rain and a/c is callin me to my bed
i swear i wish theres no work tmr
but shant let zzz get the better of me

oh!

happy birthday xiang!

free up a day for me next week
i'll take u out man
sorry i cant make it tmr
heh =)


you drive away from my car crash of a heart
and you dont know

'cause u gave me the best mixtape i have
even all the sad songs aint so sad
i just wish there was so much more than that
about me and you


nights guys

xoxo
6:48 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005

fantastic four was pretty nice
ok, maybe i'm just being bias but, who cares?
so sorry i had to leave em early and late in meetin val
i need to take up time-management classes
but then again, all these only happen cuz i'm a selfish being
so its discipline geor,
quick go find it
mayb u left it in the shower or something?

wah..
i'm lame to the max
but its precisely cuz i cant walk right
that ive all these other wonderful beings around,
to help keep my balance
thank u crutches!

haha =))


and it seems my fist-size, blood-pumping, vascular organ has been tryin to transmit some harder than o's qns to my piece of dense grey matter for very long. more than a month to be exact.

its askin why its starting to beat at an astounding rate when she's near.why it might even feel like its gonna pop right outta my mouth sometimes. only to beat at a reluctant rate when its all over. then feel all tight and mashed up as these info are processed slowly to my brain.

i think its tellin me something
and missing her is jus a part of it
tsktsk

i'm a borderline pass for o's
so i doubt i'll even be able to smell a D grade for this
it dusn help havin a rusty brain either
this is pure suicide man
haha

oh and dear limpeixiang, since when do i not owe u man?
haha
oh dear, i make ur name sound like a new age vulgarity
oops!

i'm wide awake man
diee

and i think i'm talkin in riddles again
ok not riddles, more like codes
oh well.

xoxo
5:16 PM

geor JUST officially woke up
-growls-
sorry, that was her tummy growling
she's hungry mad
haha

woke up to jay chou playin (??!!!)
and a very hyper geor
hahaha

yes sweets, i promise u dim sum and chwee kueh
when we do meet, ill bring u there
since u crack me up so badly
haha. gracias

the day seems to be going well
H A H
since its been so long i woke up THIS late
actually it isnt very though
given the fact that i was jus plain lazing for the past 2 hrs
heh

theres steamboat tonight
then a movie?
then?
see how laa

ive been going too much for the moments,
ive forgotten bout the consequences
pissed so many people off
but thank goodness they understand that geor,
is the lousiest friend anyone can have
and they are like ever so nice, right?
ok enough of sucking up
heh


So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered, I lie
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot, then we can die

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out!

I say you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say... take me out!

If I move this could die
If eyes move this could die
I want you...to take me out!

I say you don't know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out!

franz ferdinand - take me out

stuck in the head, for now
and yes, it feels nice being home
when everyone else is not that is

oh, eileen jus called
a lil pool before meetin huang and all i guess
then its movie and night out wit miss preetty
HEH

can anyone tell that geor is mad and happy?

pardon me for the sudden outburst
i dunno wads going on either
the hormones arent makin much sense now u see


and u leave me wantonly wantin
though i know it dusn matter
ohhhhh wellllll
-heaves a long deep sigh-
hahaha

=))

adios amigo!

xoxo
5:23 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

i swear i'm sorry xiang,
i really am
all the way to jb and back

the same goes for jed
i know i'm the worst friend anyone deserves
i was just plain moody
if u wud even buy it anymore

geor is annoyed at the fact that she's sucha wuss

and if kens are irritants as such
why not look to ur left, look to ur right?
so it all boils down to it being wrong, again?
even if it werent so, so?
whatever geor, wake up man wake up
tsktsk

dammit
shagged to the max


It's amazing how you knock me off my feet
Everytime you come around me I get weak
Nobody ever made me feel this way
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know
I wanna know

Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart
it's true

joe - i wanna know

haha. sooo cheesy

heck, i like laa

=)

buenas noches

xoxo
4:53 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

I guess it's time I run far, far away
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

tears and rain - james blunt


screws and nails
the architects of pride has built this one high,
way up the thousand floors
i'm crashing down from tonight

something ate my ego
it even stole my pride
leaving me cold and empty
in the wicked hands of the night

so as the sun takes on the moon
tilt ur head up high
i'd rather u miss me in the crowd
than to see the tear in my eye



ok, i know i sound off
but ya, heck
the night really nv fails to get me
this sucks
its 1.35 and i still cant decide wad to do tmr
how smart

and if u aint happy, let the shit out ur ass

sorry for sounding crude
oops


bourna notte bellas

georr bites! -roars-

xoxo
4:36 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

my delusive self has transcended all living beings and everything else

pardon me as i sleep on it
sinkin into every bit
its not everyday that u find sense knockin on your door
cus it just happily missed mine tonight


i hope i'll get down to doin wad i planned to
i wanna ikea tmr
and i know only eileen will go wit me
right miss kang?

heh. -grins-

and i'm only a TAD BIT sadded bout tmr,
today, technically
i want the tapas can
haha. glutton

oh well
geor is very tired
and the result of being hungry = angry geor
so shut up everyone,
its bedtime.

=))

xoxo
5:45 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

got back not too long ago
had a heavy lunch today

made like steak and salad again
seeki/seekee however u pronounce it came down too
we jus didnt leave workplace for almost a good 12 hrs
haha.

and stupid qn of the day
'are u two twins?'
hahahahahahahaha
i feel sad for yingxi can
seriously

and i cant believe i forgot to say this y'day
I SAW A LOTUS ELISE OUTSIDE MARRIOT
damn nice please like, OMG?!
hahaha random again

i realised my moods are like changing alternately
like a day good while the next bad
so on and so forth
hmmm..

ok, geor is nonsense churning today
no riddles, no guessin and definitely not a single bit of rhyming

and i suddenly saw my pic from two yrs ago
i looked like an ah beng
short, GOLDEN hair
hahahaha
but still as fat now, maybe worse
heh


u said wont
i sldve known
well actually i always have
but u see,
we live in d-e-n-i-a-l
so that explains abit
HAH


sld i dye my hair?
hmmm..

xoxo
4:09 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

ok, there're points in time when we get all tangled up

pissed with every lil crease around
snapping at the slightest sound
yes everyone, grab hold of something now
its certified, we're going down

dont ask why cuz i have no clue
i'm only talkin like an idiot
to sound like a fool

so steal some band aids and grab ur tools
aint no sleepin tonight till this is through


and i'm so sorry lin and huang and jed
i always cancel last min
was grumpy
sorry man


and eileen miss had to take my nonsense, yet again
was acting all like a kid
whining and crankin
and clowning like a total ass


i need my donuts

ice cream would really be great too though

xoxo
4:26 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

I know you keep a journal
and every page is rippled
From the tears that you cry,
ain't no meanin' to your scribble
Cause words can't describe
what you've been feelin' inside
It's like thousand foot walls,
and they're still on the rise

But look up to a beautiful sound
And see for yourself you're not that far down
And know this, I cannot love a little
My promise to you is unconditional

And I'll keep the light on, baby
Just keep the course,
you can weather the storm
I'll keep the light on, baby
You've come this far,
don't you ever lose heart,now
Just turn around and I'll be there
I'm moving into your atmosphere
Just turn around and I'll be there
I'm moving into your atmosphere

I know you're all alone in a crowd full of friends
I can see it in your eyes that your fadin' again
Checking out, moving into your hole
Where the light can't touch
any part of your soul
But hold up and let the river rush in
You can turn around and start livin' again
Cause your life is a beautiful bloom
In the image of the one that created you

atmosphere - tobymac

ive never heard of this tobymac guy actually
but its nice, haha


everyone around has all got
a hidden agenda i need not elaborate bout,

its all about disguising
and i'm more than fastidious to hiding
so i'm bowing down to admitting

and having been used more than once?
damn its dumb enough
so no more
not even a chance

the shoebox of stuffs and photos
are just nth but some sepia tone loving
from way back then
that wun ever make its way back again

=)

thats it,
bournjourno!
yes i finally remember how to spell
its 'good mornin' though
haha

mi manchi

xoxo
5:32 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

i'm gonna clear everything soon
muhahaha

damn i sound psycho

and ta,
though u were brutally honest last night
thank u cuz somehow
i dunno how
u squeezed some sense into muah
and i'm feelin good
goooooood
=))))))

so much so that i think i'm mad

ok. i think u took the part which i told u to jus ignore wad ive said and take it that i didn say anything damn well. i guess u assumed what u thought. but no, it hasnt. not over yettt. haha. oh well. not like theres anything i want u to do though, cuz theres pretty much like nothin to? hmmmmm..

and ive a bad feelin for sayin the above
like something i dun want will happen
to me la
diee

w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r


See I just want you
To know that you are really special..
Ohh why, oh why, oh why, oh why...

beautiful..
i just want u to know
you're my favourite girl.
ohh ohh ohh

beautiful - snoop dogg ft pharrel williams

i SLD sleep
oh, i'm damn hungry
and eileen kang is making me crave all kinda food
wad an ass

oh and HAPPY uhh.. 4th MONTH TA!
u and him laa
heh

ciao ciao

xoxo
4:43 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

on Vineland past the candle shrine
that burns on every night for someone
she lets herself go
like an angel in the snow
she lays down on her back
down on her back - she goes

take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me

she pulls me in - strips me down
she pulls me in - turns me out
she pulls me in - strips me down

take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me
will they burn for me

candleburn - dishwalla

this's the killer song that
drove my ass down the thousand floors
right straight to the ground

-ouch-

i wish i could talk more even when emo
swing's gettin bad
but today was supp to be good
whatever

oh and seriously
do u even know who i'm talkin bout?
cuz like, not that i want u to show (-) reactions
but i cant even tell if u know its u
i dunno why i want u to know
just like i dunno what i wanna know either

isit possible to like show that u know?
haiya.. i sound drunk

ure like a movie wit very good advertising
a seemingly exciting plot
and has angelina jolie
kiera knightley
and alot others which my brain dusn allow me to think of now acting in it
which can only mean ONE thing
DIEE

go sleep la geor
when it comes it comes
if it dusn den too bad la

xoxo
5:21 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

i saw the f*cker who stole me phone!
at the station
i noticed a guy lookin and i recognised la
went up and said,

'hey, arent u the one who HELPED me?
wah my phone got STOLEN that night.
anyway THANKS eh.'

i was damn sarcastic
if he wsn the one who stole it den diee
haha

he jus 'oh its ok' and rushed off
bastard

THE BOSS came back
WALAU
asked me to give him a KISS
like ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
evreyone was there and
he pushed his face at me la
no choice
so smack i went
-pweh-

they still think i'm a kid there seriously
WTF?!

on a lighter note
went for movie wit val
was nice seeing her
pretty pretty la ya
haha

walked from mango to mango
to find her top
she was like,
'this color or that?'
ok but i'm kinda used to this la
haha

her adidas sweater's damn nice
BRAZILIAN color laa


leavin it as it is,
for now
but dun rejoice too early
i'm unpredictable

BULL

xoxo
3:43 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

today's just alot better
thanks for that call
i think i sorta know what i need to do
or like what i wanna do
and yes, i'm feelin a thousand floors better
ure the best xiang! =))

-rolls around and round and round-

i like how today went

pleasantly surprising
surprisingly pleasant

i'm rubbishing here now
haha

i feel like giving it a shot
but i'm sure u'd rather i not
and ive a feelin u dunno who you are

i dont mean to hide behind riddles
i jus dun like feelin so exposed
i'm not brave, i'm far from it
i'm timid

ciao bellas

xoxo
3:48 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

midnight
lock all the doors
and turn out the lights
feels like the end of the world
this Sunday night

there's not a sound
outside the snow's coming down
and somehow I can't seem to find
the quiet inside my mind

3:02
the space in this room
has turned on me
and all my fears have cornered me here
me and my TV screen

the volume's down
blue lights are dancing around
and still, I can't seem to find
the quiet inside my mind

daylight is climbing the walls
cars start and feet walk the halls
the world awakes and now I am safe
at least by the light of day


john mayer - quiet


on the contrary to how i felt yesterday
my mood's quite a goner now
there're just so many things
that i don't understand
that ive no clue
that i really wanna clear my doubts about

yet i don't wanna live each day
guessing, hesitating, contemplating
and end up regretting having wasted my time
on things as frivolous as such

life is short
thats one big reason why i do some of the things
i always do, but get yacked for
though i must say life for me has never been any close to exciting

but i enjoy things i'm sure of
like i have control over?
in other words,
i'm boring

in fact i was thinking today
bout how i've changed
to quite a different person
and like wad sorta person i still am
it then dawned on me
that its time i start doing some things
on my own accord,
for my own good

i hear myself say that very often though
and yes, almost everyone
ok, how bout EVERYONE thinks i cant too?
perhaps i just need someone to believe in me
i guess i REALLY do

cuz noone has for 94758492971 yrs
and that sucks
to feel so belittled
by people around you
disregarding whether they matter or not

and for tonight
i'm shrinkin into my inferior shell
just for tonight geor
it has to go
period

sigh

pardon me for my incessant rantings
it just had to be lifted off my chest


take me over when i'm gone
take me over make me strong
i need someone around
to tell me where i belong
and yes dont even doubt it
its you i'm talkin about

sense i know i hardly make
but nights like these i can barely take
strewn on a bed of roses
forced to sleep in a dozen poses
feelin the moist in my eyes i haven felt for ages

yet, its only on nights as such
that i get to myself as much
so i'll apologise once through
cuz i dont mean to scare you

i just needed someone to save me from a night as cruel

random ramblings?

xoxo
4:23 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

instead of gettin to freeze my arse off
we went to brewerkz.
rightt.
and upon arrival,
i realised i cudn take any of the beer there
cuz it makes me wanna puke
(since the last time)
so i had to resort to drinking cocktails
at brewerkz,
a place for beer

whatever

anyhow, geor is just slightly mad now
and she's not makin the slightest sense

and geor is happy how the day went
despite how much her day was ruined earlier, when she woke up to what she really didnt wanna hear. well, nothin can seem to wipe off the friggin smirk off her face. HEH!

and i cant believe what i got to know about today. heh. like OMG!


My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

dashboard confessionals - hands down


pardon me for being rude
but yes,
when i see you
girl i get foolish
ignore the fact if i'll never be
damn i'm jus so into you
and yes, ure all i ever want now
=)


oh and how exciting!
work tmr!
anti-climax
-ROARS-

xoxo
6:07 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

i got my DONUTS, thankew!
=))


and finally whole day off tmr and the day after

i really wanna watch movies
'war of the worlds' wit val on tues
i hope WE wun cancel it AGAIN
i like movies wit preeetty ladies
heh


and TA.
ure MISSED by ME
so meet me soooon u neh neh
ure FOREVER so busy la
haha

ok actually i'm missin alotta people, suddenly
hmmm..

i wonder if my brain's tryin to tell me something.
it always is but i can nv quite catch it.
or i'll jus be a step too late


had a thought today
and realised i'm not the sort who takes risk
but i enjoy short cheap thrills
its like, say this glass door is closing infronta u
and uve to open it la (duh)
theres a handle, but u choose to pull from the edge instead
wit the possibilty of crushing ur lil fingers

ok that sounds very vague
and i'm too tired to explain further

i'll jus leave it as it is
people my frequency might get it

nights!

xoxo
4:12 PM

xoxo
12:04 AM