perfect standstill

Sunday, June 19, 2005

i told u i know things will change
the way u think
the way u see things

i actually typed a chunk
i repeat, a whole CHUNK today
but everythin was gone
due to some stupid reason
pissing mad and lazy, as usual

Say when you're alone
It's better 'cause nobody knows you
When no one's your friend
It's better 'cause nobody leaves you
So you turned your back

On a world that you could never have
'Cause your heart's been cracked
And everyone else's is goin' mad

But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you

Now all of these people
Come up from deep holes
Pullin' you down
And it's just no use
When all the abuse follows you down
By the morning you've gone
Leavin' me here all alone
Sayin' it's no mystery
I know that nobody here needs me

And I know you believe
that you and me don't belong here
And the worst we could do
Is keep trying to pretend we care

the wallflowers - i wish i felt nothing

i dun have much to talk bout
as in i lack words and events to say
wads going on in my life
everytime i come and sit in front of
this screen, i realise how empty and boring
my life actually is,
as much as i'm tryin to conceal it

it dusn work that way
more like it sldnt
the way i'm tryin so hard
only to see things backfire
using words that dun belong to me
seems easier such as songs/music, whatever?

i jus feel its so much easier to express myself
like after such a long day in my monotonous life,
i can find things that i relate to and
describe and express myself without havin to
wreck my brains to look for words that
arent even half as apt as the song can do

i can yack all the rubbish in fronta friends
but there're jus a thousand other situations
where words jus evaporate
the moment my lips part
believe it or not, i can barely say like
the stupid three words,
i miss u and all that bull to whoever it may be

nv verbally at least
i dunno
theyre always like clinging onto my throat
refusing to budge

haiya

i'm only good at blabbering
like the way i am now
and i feel stupid for wad ive typed
but i'm jus too lazy to remove it
sloth is my middlename
and i'm sick of not being able to make sense
period.

xoxo
5:03 PM