perfect standstill

Monday, April 10, 2006

i pronounce demented/sad/bitter/angry songs and geor, partners for life.
for better or worse
till death do they part

its easy thinking and feeling AND finding the so-called hurt in you.
but nothing accentuates the pain as well as my partners do.
occasions like these, with the sky all gloomy and home all alone,
they make the bestest friends.

im not being emo
im not attempting to make myself become emo either
just overwhelmed by the sudden realisation why everyone still prefers sadsadsad songs to happy ones

cuz they never fail to get u right there
even when ure feelin all high and chirpy
cuz nothing hits u more strongly and knocks u over more than feeling that, (in ta's words) someone-squeezing-your heart feeling.

and its nice to feel that way, every once in awhile
cuz nothing gets more real than that
the way it chokes all the air right up there
and u going, 'shit, i think my lungs and heart are mating'
cuz they feel all tangled up
after which, u start to feel ur very own presence, that u are indeed actually here and not just drifting around in ur everyday

wah, 2nd entry of the day in 3hrs. lol
wtheck hahaha oh and right,
i know i sound a lil sick in the mind sometimes
and i make it sound like im sucha emotionally unsound person
i hope i wouldnt come off as too much of a scare to u guys
cuz im not, i just tend to think alot on stupid things,
that matters to me, somehow, sometimes
hmmm just rather emotional la
and for once, finally, im proud to say this out loud.

'today, i cried.'

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xoxo
12:12 PM