perfect standstill

Thursday, April 13, 2006

woke up and found myself in foreign lands today
haven quite felt this way in ages, maybe never
a bittersweet kinda thing
neither here nor there
ive never liked anything im unsure of
as in the way youre clueless what it is
amazingingly this time, its giving me flutters 'stead of the shudders

know how when u listen to particular songs
and the pretty pretty strumming of the guitars?
its like theyre strumming on your heart strings literally
or when the piano hits notes high as ever
you find yourself lifted by it
the weird lil butterflies they say ud get but u never quite believed?
then suddenly you find yourself with no reasons not to

its pretty dangerous the way it makes u look slightly demented
as you smile silly to yourself on the bus/train, anywhere
over stuffs so silly youve never imagined you would
perhaps gaiety comes with only the silliest, most simple things afterall

then outta the blue, your playlist churns out a now-emo song
now-emo being it making you emo only now, never before
cuz the song has never mattered to you
just lately when you realise what it means to somebody else
vicious cycle really, how u feel the ouchouch cuz as u listen
you think of how ouch it makes/made somebody go/went

this is the phase im going through
the foreign state ive landed myself in
the phase when youre not bothered by whats gonna happen
well, not exactly unbothered, just isnt important yet i guess
cuz u already know whats next
and you just dont wanna get there
lengthening as much as you can, the shelf-life of whats going on now
cuz as unfamiliar as the feeling youre having,
youre loving every bit of it, well, almost every bit

hmm. i understand this entry is rather corny to most of you
geor is a hopeless-FillInTheBlanks. hahaha
its early and pls dont rain, for today at least
ok, how bout the rest of this week. haiya

oh and i dont understand,
WHY CANT I SLEEP TILL AS LATE AS I USED TO?!
this is damn sad ok, like seriously
im tired laa. GAH

xoxo
10:36 AM