perfect standstill

Friday, November 03, 2006

its not supposed to feel like this isnt it?
i mean put aside the grief and tension, why do i feel stress and pressure too?

its not as though anyone's expecting something from me
what can they anyway?
it just never felt this awkward and stressful talking to/being around her
a slight slip of the tongue and god knows what will happen
she's been so nice, nicest to me i must say
and there's nothing left to do but watch as everything starts to move in fastforward mode

who wouldve even imagined this?
just starts the damn fear in me
fear for the effects of this vicious cycle
which is sick even for the mind to think about
niak! what a disgusting entry for the morning
but this happens when ure at a lost for what to do

i'm thinkin of all sorts of possibilities just because of my own definition of helpless
what should she be thinking of then?
i dare not even try answering

I hate to see you cry
lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

john mayer - heart of life

on a lighter note
i think john mayer's new album is getting to me
im starting to really really like it
fight fire with fire, blues with blues
ok not exactly but theyre just quite damn good
classic? maybe. whatever.

xoxo
11:26 AM